I just can't catch a break... (long)

trevess

After a long drawn-out process of trying to arrange at-home daycare for Hayden it's just not going to happen.  DH's neice wanted $400 per week, PLUS she wanted us to pay her car insurance.  Uh, NO!!!  So, this week I began taking her a few times for about 2 hours each day to the daycare in my school.  It went okay, I guess.  A few things weren't the best (she wouldn't nap yesterday, plus she spit up ALL over herself while there- and this never happens...I wonder if she was upset???)  I'm just going to have to get used to the fact that NO ONE will ever be able to care for my baby like I do. 

So, I'm just kind of starting to accept this. Sort of.

Work officially starts on Wednesday and I'm feeling better each day about it.  I'm getting stuff done for school & feeling kinda ok about going back after 6 months off.  (I know I'm very blessed that I was able to have that much time off- trust me I don't take that for granted).  I still have random bouts of tears when DH & I talk about someone in day care putting her down for naps, or feeding her. 

I was also stressing that I didn't have much of a frozen stash after seeing how tough it is to pump.  What the heck was I doing all this time?  Did I think the milk would magically appear?  I will catch up on weekends, I told myself. 

Now tonight after her last feeding I feel this sharp pain in my right nipple.  Google seems to confirm my suspicion that it is thrush.  So now, all of this stress of going back to work, putting Hayden in daycare, and figuring out how the heck she is going to have an adequate milk supply is probably going to be topped off with a thrush infection for both of us, and medication I would rather not give my child. 

I know there are people way worse off than myself & I should be grateful to have a job to go back to in this economy.   But, WHY NOW?  When it rains it pours...

(Thanks for listening, I super-puffy heart you gals!)

CanadianBride84

*Hugs*

I am sorry she is expecting so much to watc Hayden.  It is possible she was just upset her first day that she got sick, and hopefully she will get better at napping and adjusting to make your life easier.  I know I am dreading going back to work myself, even though I still have until May.

MrsBlayne

It is so hard to go back to work! That is terrible timing for the thrush. I have heard that gentian (sp?) violet can clear it up. The fact that no one will care for your baby like you do is something that, unfortunately, you just have to accept. But when she gets so excited to see you after a day at work it will *almost* all be worth it! Hugs!

Mrs.N.H.

::Hugs::

dani_girl08

I'm sorry, Carollyn. I'm dreading this transition, & I know its hard. I hope the next few days at daycare get better. I'm sure Hayden will adjust quickly. Sending you :::milk vibes::: to help you pump. {{{HUGS}}}

MelVic

Oh honey, it is so hard to go back to work..I am dreading that day myself....

Can you visit Hayden at the daycare at your school on breaks? That is one plus if you can.....most people can not see their kids at all, so maybe the fact that you can a couple of times a day will make you feel a little better....

I know it is easier said then done, but you need to try and relax.....could be part of the reason you are developing Thrush, because you are so nervous and stressed out it is taking a toll on your body....

I know what you mean about the spitting up...G never spits up, but on rare occasions like if I put her on her belly for tummy time too early after she eats, she does spit up....so maybe that was all it was...

No one will ever be able to take care of H the way her Momma does....But remember she will be in good hands and it is adjustment for both of you....If she sees you upset, it is only going to make her more upset....Be strong Mommy.....H will be well taken care of for the few hours you have to work....(And remember she will not remember any of this someday)

Tons of ((hugs)) and xoxoxo's 

lindeenwedding

Sorry it didn't work out, but just think of all the socialization she will get at a DC center. I personally think its a MUCH, MUCH better learning environment then being watched my a family member. You are really lucky to have been with her for the last 6 months and you will see such a change in her growing into a toddler over the next few months that I bet you will be very happy that it worked out this way as you see her learning and making friends. Good luck going back to work, its tough no matter what

natalee215

I'm sorry that you're go through all of this.  I'm dreading leaving Caroline to return to work.  I basically just had her and I have to return in 10 weeks

((( hugs )))

Mrs.PsyD

Big hugs. I'm sorry all this is coming to a head right before school starts for you. Here's a bright spot though. If she needs you during the day, you'll just be steps away.

 

Tons of milk vibes coming for your stash!

Buttercup29

Sending you lots of hugs and an easy transition for you guys!

BlondeBeachBride08

Ugh, I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this right now. 

Thrush is definitely not fun. How long did the nipple pain last after the feeding? Have you had any pain since? I'd try the gentian violet right away, it's natural and if you can kick it early before it gets into your milk ducts you will be much better off in the long run!

I had to order gentian violet online and it took almost a week to get it so I'd act right away.

I can't really comment on the daycare situation except to send some big hugs your way!! 

Ms.Beachbum08

You definitely do not need this stress before school starts.  The transition of going back to work is stressful enough never mind the daycare situation and the milk supply.  I hope that everything will calm down, your boob will feel better, and you will get to start your school year off on a good note.  Also, I am glad that you were able to find daycare because alot of people are having a hard time right now.

trevess

Thanks for all your support, gals!  Today I gave up sugar (including fruit) to help the situation, I've been rinsing with vinegar/water after each feeding, going braless & I disinfected everything that my boobs or Hayden's mouth come into contact with.  My midwife also recommended Lotrimin, so I'm doing that.  My super-crunchy SIL told me to eat raw garlic because it is an anti-fungal, so I did that as well...along with some probiotics. 

((I'm crossing my fingers for no antibiotics for me or Hayden!))

BlondeBeachBride08

trevess:

Thanks for all your support, gals!  Today I gave up sugar (including fruit) to help the situation, I've been rinsing with vinegar/water after each feeding, going braless & I disinfected everything that my boobs or Hayden's mouth come into contact with.  My midwife also recommended Lotrimin, so I'm doing that.  My super-crunchy SIL told me to eat raw garlic because it is an anti-fungal, so I did that as well...along with some probiotics. 

((I'm crossing my fingers for no antibiotics for me or Hayden!))

That all sounds good. Antibiotics would just exacerbate the infection and allow the yeast to grow even more, they might prescribe and anti-fungal though.

Watch foods with high yeast content, white bread etc. 

good luck