frustrations

sgb721

ACK- have you ladies ever just felt yourself screaming inside in frustration but you realize that most likely no one will get it? I'm assuming most have if we're all online venting to total strangers.

I pretty much want to rip Dh's head off for the stupidest reasons. I'm sure its PMS, sometimes it feels like more then that. We watched 'The Proposal' tonight and all I kept thinking about is how I wanted to visit Washington state (due to scenic background shots of 'Alaska'.) I kept thinking if we have a baby we won't do that- we wont' have the time, resources, money, etc. which spiraled into DH will never want to move out of this house let alone the state because he's never been away from his family and I don't even know what its like to be close to my family. And how maybe we shouldn't be doing this- trying to start a family type thing, maybe we are to young, maybe we are nuts, maybe we should wait and be married longer.

And then part of me knows that when I feel those cramps and I see the red I'll be in tears because maybe I wasted another month. Maybe I missed an opportunity if we aren't trying. 

I'm going to bed. 

Milliways

Sweet dreams.

parker163

Strawberryglobug:

ACK- have you ladies ever just felt yourself screaming inside in frustration but you realize that most likely no one will get it? I'm assuming most have if we're all online venting to total strangers.

I pretty much want to rip Dh's head off for the stupidest reasons. I'm sure its PMS, sometimes it feels like more then that. We watched 'The Proposal' tonight and all I kept thinking about is how I wanted to visit Washington state (due to scenic background shots of 'Alaska'.) I kept thinking if we have a baby we won't do that- we wont' have the time, resources, money, etc. which spiraled into DH will never want to move out of this house let alone the state because he's never been away from his family and I don't even know what its like to be close to my family. And how maybe we shouldn't be doing this- trying to start a family type thing, maybe we are to young, maybe we are nuts, maybe we should wait and be married longer.

And then part of me knows that when I feel those cramps and I see the red I'll be in tears because maybe I wasted another month. Maybe I missed an opportunity if we aren't trying. 

I'm going to bed. 

btw, "alaska" was actually rockport, ma....

sounds pms to me....i never thought i got it, then it hit me once that nothing DH does is right around that time....i do what you are doing...go to bed and forget about it. take it easy!

Heather & Nayt

WA state is not worth ripping your DHs head off for, trust me. 

I think if you are already losing it and you haven't even really started TTC you need to think long and hard about how you will respond when you have a demanding newborn depending on you.  

Lisa102304

Strawberryglobug:

I kept thinking if we have a baby we won't do that- we wont' have the time, resources, money, etc.

A baby does not prohibit you from doing these things. They DO let you take the baby with you when you travel. Yes, it becomes more of a production, but having a baby does not equal being perpetually homebound.

Maybe a monthly vacation, or even 3-4 times a year would be out of the question, but there is NO reason you cannot take a yearly (ONCE A YEAR) vacation somewhere. 

And, if having a baby straps you financially SO MUCH that considering a vacation is out of the question, it may be time to re-evaluate the timing of a baby. JMO.

Jewlz018

Have a drink before bed.  Sounds like you need it.

Hope you start feeling better soon.