How am I supposed to leave the hospital today?

Kiki11

I have been fortunate enough to stay in the hospital since my son was born 5 days ago, but today is the day I have to go home.  My heart feels like it is physically breaking in half.  How am I supposed to walk out those doors and leave my little guy here so far away from me?

Clotho!

I think everyone here will agree that is the hardest thing to do. (((HUGS))) send T&P to you guys.

Denesdia

My heart hurts for you.  Just take it one hour at a time and know that your LO is where he needs to be, for now.

FisMom

We've all been there. Sending you big hugs. It's the hardest thing and I'm sure we all cried. I held DD for the first time before being discharged. I spent all day with her and my doc let me do a late discharge. Just know that your son is where he needs to be right now, getting excellent care 24 hours a day.

msalinardi@live.com

HUGS! You leave knowing that you will be back in a couple of hours. Regain your stength for him and get some rest. Good Luck!

Sweets2005

Clotho!:

I think everyone here will agree that is the hardest thing to do. (((HUGS))) send T&P to you guys.

Yes, agreed. It won't be easy (  I'm sorry!!!! Hang in there.

kamcfarlane

it's so hard. it sucks and it's not fair. big hugs to you!!

one thing our favorite NICU nurse told us - soon, this will all seem like a bad dream. and while it didn't seem possible at the time, every day i get further away it seems more and more true.

Lavender444

I'm so sorry. That is so difficult to do.

My hospital offers "Bunking" to NICU parents. Where they get to stay in a empty hospital room (possbily not of the mom/baby unit) for as long as the baby is a patient. Maybe you can check with you NICU nurse to see if they do something similar?

Irishsapphire

It is not easy.  It is a lonely feeling.  Hugs to you. 

angelatron26

Hugs

It's one of the hardest things to do.  And it doesn't get any easier.  We've all been there.  Hopefully, you won't have too long a stay.

buenaestrella77

sending you hugs...lots of hugs. 

you're so right it is hard and heart breaking. it truly was one of the worst days of my life. cry, talk to love ones, surround yourself with pictures of your little one and listen to all the preemie success stories on this board and loved ones tell you about....it helps, at least that helped me.

we're here for you.

hugs and prayers to you. 

lpstjohn

It is definitely the hardest thing.  I was crying all morning waiting on the doctor to come in and say it was time for me to go home.  I just had to keep telling myself she was in the best place possible and would be getting the appropriate care and I would be back as soon as I could to see her.  You have to heal yourself so you can be your best for your baby. 

massnk

Just remember he is in the best place he could possibly be and one day you will be walking out those doors with him.  Let him grow and get strong and try to take care of yourself.  I remember how heartbreaking it was to leave but it does get easier after a week or 2.