upcoming surgery... freaking out [:'(]

CityPixie

I'm having a bad day.  I'm starting to get scared about surgery. (getting some kind of cyst removed from left ovary)  The last time I had an IV I passed out.  The needles for giving blood aren't the greatest either.  I'm just full of anxiety.

I was supposed to have it on Wednesday and then the nurse called this morning and wanted to move it up to Tuesday which I said yes but I have to call my husband.  So he has a bunch of work meetings and I called the nurse to tell her that and she says well, it is just that on Wednesday we won't have our regular surgical team.  So I'm freaking out and call my husband back and then call the office back.    By then they had given away my Tuesday appointment and now I have to WAIT until FRIDAY.  And then, when I tried to schedule my follow-up consult for Monday she said she wasn't sure I'd be recovered by then.  So now I've lost my weekend, and I'm scared that this is going to be a bigger deal than I thought because of her recovery comment.  AND it pushes my vaccination into later next week which means in theory they could say it is too close to Sept O and then I'll end up missing AUG AND SEPT opportunities!!  I should have just said yes Tuesday fine.  My husband's work meetings aren't the effing priority and he knows that.  Why did I do that!?  Grrr!   -Pix

rach2100

aaawww Pix...sorry your having such a rough day.   {{BIG HUGS}}  Take some deep breaths and let the anxiety go....I know, easier said than done.

And I wouldn't worry about her 'recovery comment'...who knows why she said that out loud.  

*Chicken*

I'm sorry, Pixie. 

 

jcath

I'm sorry, that would stress me out too! I hope it all goes smoothly from here

redsoxbono

I'm so sorry - hang in there!

kinsalebride

so sorry you're stressed out. just try to take it one day at a time and not look too far ahead, sometimes that can make the overwhelming feeling worse. i think it may actually be a good thing that your appt. is fri. and you have the weekend to recover. i had that with my ERs and I felt more relaxed knowing i had the weekend to recuperate. best of luck with the procedure.

CityPixie

Here's the thing...and I know I'm in feel sorry for myself obsessing mode but...If I can't even handle this "easy" surgery how could I possibly handle the rest of this process?  I'm not easy going about procedures and poking and prodding like others on the board.  I'm worried I'm not cut out for TTC and PG.  I'm a huge wimp.  Wahh!!   (So much for Positive Pix today.)

lizardknitter

I understand about the stressing over all the details.  For your pre-surgical anxiety, why not ask the doc for a xanax or valium pill before your arrival.  That way, you won't care about the needle sticks or whatever.

And I agree with the PP about having a whole weekend to recover.  You don't know how your body will react to the whole process.  It'll all turn out.

Good luck! 

shyntrue

{{{Big Hugs}}}  I know several people who have had similar surgery and were fine in a few days after.  {{{Hugs}}}

OscarQ

CityPixie:

Here's the thing...and I know I'm in feel sorry for myself obsessing mode but...If I can't even handle this "easy" surgery how could I possibly handle the rest of this process?  I'm not easy going about procedures and poking and prodding like others on the board.  I'm worried I'm not cut out for TTC and PG.  I'm a huge wimp.  Wahh!!   (So much for Positive Pix today.)

I'm sorry that the surgery got postponed - I tend to defer to DH's schedule too much as well and I should know his schedule isn't a priority.  Heck, I didn't even ask him to come to my D&C with me - I had my dad take me.

But here's the thing I've learned along this journey - you will handle everything thrown at you and then some - simply because you'll just keep putting one foot in front of the other.  It's like the analogy of the frog being slowly boiled alive - if you put it into the boiling water, the frog would jump out but if you put it into cold water and slowly raise the temp, the frog ... wow, bad analogy but you get the point.  I was a total wimp about even simple blood draws - I still can't look but blood draws don't bother me anymore. 

&&

Damn- that sucks all around.  Sorry you are having a bad day, and I can totally relate to all of the "negative" thinking- (I would do the same exact thing).  Try to get some sleep and hopefully tomorrow,  you can try to think about the positives:  you are getting a much needed surgery in order  to conceive your perfect little baby sometime in the near future!! 

JilliansMoma

Pix-

Just wanted to let you know  that before I could proceed with any of my IUI's I had to have a cyst removed on my left ovary too.  The whole process sucks but it was sooo much easier than I thought it would be. I really get myself worked up over stuff like this.  After the surgery I was surprised that I didn't hurt like I thought I would.  Now I didn't go out for a jog or anything but I was OK with hanging on the couch with a good movie or book!!! I didn't even need to take the pain meds. they prescribed for me (I was OK with Advil) I was back to work after 3 days and it was much easier than I worked myself up over.  Anyway good luck and remember it will go smoothly!!!

JM 

nikilouhoo

I'm sorry, Pix. Lots of hugs and positive vibes are yours for the taking.

*Chicken*

Pixie, I think you're probably more resilient than you give yourself credit for.  And Oscar (??) is right you will continue forward with one foot in front of other.  Heck, I've wanted to say f**k it so many times because I didn't think I could handle any more heart ache but (as Cathy says) 'Onward' I go..  You manage too because you know in the end, no matter how your family grows, it will be all worth it.

 
I think you will find that you will have your surgery on Friday and come Monday be good to go (if not sooner).  I think you should have the followup appt for Monday and if you need to cancel cancel it.  Screw that dumb nurse!