I think I have it...

ReadyOrNotImOnMyWay

I have been very emotional ever since my LO was born in early June. It took me by surprise because I didn't get really emotional during pregnancy. My mom lives about 1000 miles from me along with the rest of my family. I moved to be with my husband about 6 years ago. Though we have all intentions of moving to be near my family in the next 3 or so years it just seems like it is never going to happen. My mom came to stay with us for 3 weeks after I had her which was wonderful. But now that she is gone I feel alone. I cry all the time... over missing my Mom, over having to take LO to daycare soon, over songs on the radio... EVERYTHING. Today was the first day I snapped at my poor husband who has been nothing but supportive. When I went for my 6 week check up I talked to my Dr about PPD and we decided to try BC pill to see if that helped first. I go back this week and I am letting her know that it didn't. I think it mostly has to deal with how much has changed. I was never gorgeous and never had a perfect body but all I see now is blah. I went from not having a single scar on my body to having a c section scar and 5 scars from having my gall bladder removed when my daughter was 6 weeks old. Now it's covered in scars and stretch marks and I feel like I look awful. I could only breastfeed for about 5 weeks due to the tests and surgery I was having for my gall bladder. LO is 8 weeks old now and starts daycare in a week... all I want to do is hold her. I don't want to clean house, do laundry, cook - nothing. I just want to be with her. Money just isn't plentiful enough for me not to return to work. If this is in fact PPD I don't have the symptoms of not wanting to take care of her or not wanting to get up with her in the middle of the night or anything. Sorry for this being all over the place but it does feel better to vent, even if I am crying again. 

seahorse mama

Stay strong.  Hope you see the above post about alternative meds to try.  I'm already freaking out about having to go back to work and the baby hasn't even been born yet!

SM