Want a do-over

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Seriously - I want a "do-over" of today....

I get to work after driving 20 miles in a torrential downpour in Kansas City rush hour traffic & a co-worker of mine announces she is pregnant in our morning meeting - wasn't even "trying" as she put it Then at lunch I find out another co-worker of mine just adopted a baby girl & they got to bring their 6-day old baby home last weekend! So just when I didn't think my day could slap another "baby announcement" at me, before I left to go home I ran into a friend I hadn't seen inawhile & she told me she was 4 mos pregnant!

Ugh - I should be thrilled for them all but I can't help but feel jealous & envious. I am probably going to hell for feeling that way! I just want a baby too - is that so much to ask!?! 

scooterq

I'm sorry hon!  You definitely aren't going to hell.  At least I hope not, because if you are I am too, because I've felt that way many times!  ((hugs))

vanessagorc

Awh...ive felt that way too.  My partner at work knows about our IF struggles bc im gone w so many appts.

Last month she told me she is preg w her 2nd, and that "it wasnt as easy this time-it took 3 months".

U are def not going to hell!  Its a natural feeling...as long as u dont kill anyone over it, ur heaven bound!

NicoleeBonsai

I feel that way sometimes too. My cube neighbor is 6 1/2 months pregnant and it took her 1 month of trying. There are probably 3 other women in my office who are pregnant too.

My best friend just had a baby boy and another good friend had her baby girl a couple weeks later. They keep joking that their kids will get married one day. I always thought that we would all have babies at the same time. Now, not so much.

In short, it seems like every woman my age who is married is also pregnant or just had a baby. And while I'm happy for them, I'm also  envious.

Someone (who doesn't know about our IF issues) said to me today, about getting pregnant, "it just happens so fast!" Um, not for everyone!

Don't worry, you're not going to hell. Your feelings are expected and natural.

MyShellyBelly

Oh sweetie, you are not going to hell.  Your feelings are completely normal and natural given all that you are going through.

I was talking to our receptionist today about how I'm starting injections on Monday and the entire time she was rubbing her stomach (15 weeks pregnant).  I felt bad, but the whole time we were talking, I kept wanting to scream at her to stop!

I know she wasn't doing it to be hurtful, but nonetheless, it still hurts very much to see others experience something we are trying so hard to experience ourselves. 

(((HUGS))) 

mm29

You are not going to hell.  I feel the same way, I have found myself hiding all my friends on fb that are pregnant or have recently had a baby  Also my sister is trying and she asked me if I would be happy for her if she got pregnant.  I told her no, how bitchy is that.  I think it's only natural to feel jealous and envious of women who get pregnant so easy. 

Edwina.McDunnough

I'm so sorry. You're not alone in your feelings, I'm totally with you.