So sad

cupcakeandmoose

I'm supposed to start AF tomorrow.  I used an FRER test Sunday morning and Thursday morning.  Both negative.  What's new.  My temps are falling (first month to chart them).  I've made an appointment with an RE for next Tuesday.  Finally, no more OB.  I haven't even started yet but know I will and am finding myself so sad.  It's getting worse each month.  This was my first month with any kind of drug (clomid) and my hopes were up so high.  Guess that's why I'm crashing so hard now. 

jcath

I'm sorry. BFNs make me sad everytime. It's the only thing that keeps me from testing insanely early. ((hugs))

redsoxbono

{{hugs}}

cupcakeandmoose

I appreciate that.  I'll gladly take those hugs.

tracybarberkja

So sorry.  I know that it's hard, but try to stay positive.  Hugs.

JilliansMoma

So sorry cupcake.  BFN are no fun at all.  GL at the RE.

cupcakeandmoose

Thank you, thank you.  Ugh...so hard.

rach2100

Sorry about the BFN...they are no fun!!  {{BIG HUGS}}

nikilouhoo

I'm so sorry. I went throug the exact same thing last cycle (first month on Clomid, so was realllly hoping). Take care and good luck!

stever

I'm so sorry. Hopefully the RE can be more helpful than your OB has been.

pnltybox

I know how you feel. I thought that once I began TTC with medical intervention, it would happen quickly.......I was disappointed when didn't, and it continues to be really frustrating at times when you know you're doing everything you're supposed to do and come up empty-handed (and worse, empty-wombed). All I can say is I'm sorry you're feeling sad, but don't give up! (((((((HUGS)))))))

Delta04

SO sorry you are feeling down.  TTC can be depressing.  HUGS to you and I hope that an RE can get you some answers...and results!!

cupcakeandmoose

Thanks SO much to everyone for the hugs and pep talks.  it helps to hear positive talk from girls in my same shoes.  I've recently stopped talking to my friends about this fertility journey because none of them can relate.  Well, one can but that was 5 years ago and she's over it now.  I know they must be sick to death of hearing about all the details and all the updates and all the INFO.  Ha (guilty face) I realized that the best place for me is right here, amongst women who know down to the dirtiest detail of what I'm feeling.  I don't know what I'd do without this board.  Seriously...

Has anyone else ever prayed so hard and so often before TTC?  God knows I didn't.  I've even resorted to making deals with him.  Wishing on every 11:11 I see.  Using birthday wishes for a pregnancy.  Even foolishly wishing on falling stars, assuming they were magical.  It's sooooooooooooooooo hard to stay hopeful sometimes.  But, all of you know exactly what I'm saying. 

Thanks to everyone and good luck to each of you this month. 

Cupcake

cutebride73

I know how you feel.  I really got my hopes up for this cycle too (first on clomid) and while I am only in the middle knowing that I didn't respond well (based on monitoring) was devastating.  I sobbed yesterday. 

I can certainly relate to the friends thing too and the praying!!  None of my closest IRL friends have had IF issues or losses, so they just don't know what to say.  I am sure they don't want to hear about it either. 

I really hope that the RE  will be able to help you and that you will have success very soon.  ((hugs))

CharBart

My first cycle on clomid was the same.  I was so excited and then nothing!

I"m sorry sweetie!  I know it sucks big time!

(((big hugs)))

BTW:  I puffy heart your screen name!!  It is so stinkin cute!!!

shyntrue

((Hugs))

cbeney

big hug to you! i know the BFN every month sucks!! hang in there!

cupcakeandmoose

Thanks to every last one of you for sharing hugs and supportive words.  It helped.  I'm feeling a bit better today.  No AF yet but I bet that's because of the stupid clomid (that didn't even work).  I swear, if it's not one thing its another. 

You all are so kind.  Thanks again.  Crossing my fingers that WE ALL get pregnant ASAP!!!!

cupcakeandmoose

CharBart:

My first cycle on clomid was the same.  I was so excited and then nothing!

I"m sorry sweetie!  I know it sucks big time!

(((big hugs)))

BTW:  I puffy heart your screen name!!  It is so stinkin cute!!!

Thanks!!!    That's my nickname and his.  hehehehe

CityPixie

this one goes out to all you gals (and to me too)...

<singing>  Can we pretend that airplanes, in the night sky, are like shooting stars?  I could really use a wish right now, a wish right now, a wish right noooow. 

GL everybody.  -Pix

cupcakeandmoose

CityPixie:

this one goes out to all you gals (and to me too)...

<singing>  Can we pretend that airplanes, in the night sky, are like shooting stars?  I could really use a wish right now, a wish right now, a wish right noooow. 

GL everybody.  -Pix

SO CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  I'll sing along........  ;-)