I got pictures!

momof2buggs

So, it's been almost 4 weeks since I placed my son for adoption, and I must say that I'm doing pretty well. DH is also. We are going on with life, even though we still have aching hearts. I start my new job on August 9, and life is happening again. DH and I have become so close through all of this, and it feels really good.

Lynn (adoptive mom) sent me a CD with quite a few pics of our son, and he is so cute! I look at them all the time, and cry because I miss him so much. I talked to her a few weeks ago, and she's loving being a mom. She emailed me today,saying she got the hospital pics back and she's sending some out. I can't wait to get them. I had a scary dream last night that Lynn and Mike had changed their minds and they wanted to return the baby to us, and I was so afraid for the baby, because all I could think is "He's losing his security". I feel so ill-equipped to take care of him right now, and that is one of the reasons why we chose adoption. I woke up crying. This is the 2nd dream that I've had like this. I think it must just be my mind sorting through my fears. 

We talked with our caseworker, and she asked of we wanted to sign a contact agreement. DH and I agreed that we would not. I trust Mike and Lynn to know what will be the best decision for our son as far as contact. It kind of makes me afraid, because I feel like I just denied my chance to have guaranteed contact, but I trust Mike and Lynn, and I don't think they would X us out. I just don't want them to "have" to send pics and remain in contact with us out of obligation. I want it to be truly heartfelt, and I don't want us to be hanging over their heads. Does that make any sense? They seem to be on the same page as us, and we want to find a comfortable level of contact for everyone, and I'm not sure that a piece of paper stating how often we will get photos, visits, etc. will be the best thing. Basically, DH and I want to respect Mike and Lynn's wishes, even if they eventually did decide not to be involved with us. *Cringes*.

Anyway, I was excited about getting pictures of our little angel, and I just wanted to share with you ladies. I know you guys rejoice over the little things too. I will post some as soon as I can figure this stinkin' thing out! Thanks girls.

 Kristi 

 

gstf344

I am glad that you are DH are getting back in the swing of things and sorting things out.  I think its wonderful that you have such a great relationship with Mike and Lynn.  Its beautiful.  I can't wait to see pictures!! :-)

DBurket

Thank you for sharing this! I find the birthparent contributions on this board to be the most helpful, insightful and inspiring.

starbuck71

Thank you for this! I agree with DBurket - love when birth moms come on.  I read your post thinking 'what an ideal situation for everyone involved'.  It is so clear that you want the absolute best for your baby. 

 I was feeling a bit run donw by the process lately.  Thank you for sharing and reminding me how good this could possibly turn out for me some day too. 

Scout05

I think this is one incredibly blessed little boy, to have so many people loving him and thinking about his best interests. It's truly amazing.

If you want to post pics here, just upload them to tinypic.com (be sure to resize to the Website/email size before you hit upload) and then paste the [IMG] code into your post. No need to mess with that tree icon up top or anything, cut and paste works great!

lisanjay

I also love getting insight from a birthmom's perspective! Cherish those pictures! Prayers for you and your DH as you continue to get back to normalcy.

jehnm

I'm glad to hear you are doing well.  I agree that is one blessed little boy with all the love going around.  I'm so glad you received pictures and that you have a great relationship with the adoptive couple.   Thank you for sharing and of course we'd love to see the little guy!