Can I not catch a break?! (long rant inside, PG ment.)
Sunshine05
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Seriously, can I not catch a break?! My Mom called last night to confirm that after talking to one surgeon, there is nothing they can really do for her. She is getting a second opinion with someone at the Cleveland Clinic just to be sure, but she is very okay with stopping all treatment. She is going to get a "timeline" soon to see how long they think she has left. I cannot deal with this at all so I am avoiding thinking about it at all costs. Yes, I'm trying my darndest to stay in denial mode. It's the only thing keeping me from breaking down completely.
We found out that my husband got the job that he interviewed for a couple weeks ago (I posted on here for good vibes). Yay, right? It's a huge pay increase. We were thrilled. Only to learn that HR is blocking it. Why? Because it's a huge pay increase. Um, that was sort of the appeal!! So now we're held up in corporate HR crap. Still hoping they can find a way to pull this through for him, but it's looking doubtful. Just when we start to see a light at the end of the tunnel of our student loans, cc debt, etc.... it gets turned off.
Just now, like literally 15 minutes ago, I got a phone call and then I went and curled up next to DH in bed and sobbed then dried my eyes and came back to my laptop to come sob to you girls next! My uber-fertile SIL just called. She started off the phone call saying "I hate to have to tell you this..." and my stomach fell. Yep, she's pregnant. With her 5th. And her oldest just (as in last week) turned 6. And to top it all off, she's due in March. Even pettier rant to follow: That's my birth month. None of DH's family have March b-days, but March is huge in my family. I always hoped for a March kid since she has pretty much the rest of the calendar year covered... March was supposed to be mine. Took that away too. Is it bad of me to hope she goes overdue and gives birth in April?? Just kidding, sort of.
Thanks for listening. It helped to just write all this out and put it out there. Sorry so long! I had a lot building up these past couple days... and these are just the worst things that have happened. Is it too late for a drink? Maybe I'll take a shot of NyQuil and head to bed. 
Re: Can I not catch a break?! (long rant inside, PG ment.)
Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
IVF #3
multiple failed cycles, multiple IUIs, lap with ovarian drilling 4/2008
Finally BFP on 11/23/09 beta#1=36 beta#2 =62 beta#3=139
Liliana was born on March 27,2010 at 21w5d due to infection and pre-term labor
BFP #2 on 6/20/10 after Gonal-F and TI First u/s showed Twins!
TTC#2 since 02/2012 with out RE...
Back to RE 08/2016----- Cycle #1 10/2016 Femara 7.5mg=???
So sorry to hear all that you're going through!!!! Lots of prayers and hugs coming your way!!!!
Do you have to work in the morming? If yes, take the NyQuil.... if no, go for something stronger like Tequila!! LOL!! J/K
Seriously though I wish things will start looking up for you soon! Sending T&P's your way.
(((((HUGS)))))
Oh, and don't feel too bad about feeling negative towards pregnant women!!! I have those same thoughts!! Two of my cousins are pregnant, 2 of my co-workers are pregnant and 2 of my friends just had babies last month!!! The worst is my 2 coworkers because we were all TTC at the same time and we would joke about who it would happen to first!! Well we know it wasn't me
I have to see them everyday at work with their growing bumps and pregnancy talk all day long!!!! What makes it worse is that about a month before they both ended up pregnant we had a huge fight and don't really talk anymore!! So even before they were preggo I didn't like seeing them!! Now..... UGHHHHH!!!!! But I put a smile on my face and keep working I don't have a choice!!
Give yourself a break, i'm sure we all have had ill thoughts towards preggos at some point!!!
((((HUGS))))
Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
So sorry you are going through all of this right now. It's hard to deal with any one of those events let alone all of those a once. ((hugs))
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom.
I will have her in my prayers.
I hope that everything works out for your DH!!!
and SIL - wow. I am so sorry. ::HUGS::
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
I'm so sorry sweetie. What a tough, tough time. Please know that I'm thinking of you.
I understand completely everything you are going through with your mom. Please feel free to come to me any time. No one really gets it until they go through it. PM me, email me, page me, whatever. I'm here for you.
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
Thanks, girls. I knew you would get it. The job thing sucks, but whatever. My SIL honestly was scared to tell me, even though she literally found out yesterday. When she called she said she knows she doesn't understand what I'm going through and hates how easily it comes for her and not for me. I know that she wishes I could get pregnant. It just sucks to be lapped not once, twice, three times... but four times?! Who else has been lapped 4 times by 1 person?! Ridiculous.
My mom being sick is the worst, it's just being compounded by everything else. I am so scared she won't be here if/when I finally do get pregnant or have a baby of my own. That kills me more than anything.