Infertility

Thank you & breaking from the boards for a bit.

I just wanted to stop by and say thank you to all of you for your t&p's. I can't tell you how much they are appreciated. DH read all of them and told me to tell you all thank you as well.

I feel like my heart is shattered into a million pieces right now because my baby was stolen from me once again. I feel again that I'm failing my DH over and over again. I'm so angry...yet so sad... I have so many feelings right now...and I feel so lost. We still aren't telling anyone about this pregnancy or m/c...because I hate when I converse with family/friends and hear "It'll happen" "Everything happens for a reason" or "In God's time." I'd rather avoid it all.

We leave for vacation on Friday, and I think it might be just perfect timing. We'll get to relax over the beautiful lake and just be.

I'm going to be taking a break from the boards for a while..until we figure out what we are going to do next...

Thank you all again....I love you all SO much.

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Re: Thank you & breaking from the boards for a bit.

  • Be sure you take care of yourself.  So sorry again about your loss.  ***HUGS***
    Lilypie Waiting to Adopt tickers
    3 IUI's, 2 IVF's , 1 FET , 1 IVF w/ Gestational Carrier, and 1 FET using adopted embryo's = ALL BFNs
    We are adopting!

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  • I have been thinking about you sweetie.  I am so so sorry and it is so unfair.  I hope that your vacation is wonderful and helps to relax you and take your mind off things, even if just a little.  Big hugs.
    Dx with PCOS and IR June 2009
    After two losses, third time was a charm.
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  • I'm really sorry for your loss.   I think vacation and just being is a great thing.  Take the time for yourselves and spoil yourselves a little.  We are here for you when you are ready. ((hugs))
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  • I'm sorry about your loss. I hope your holiday and break is relaxing and restorative.
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  • Big huge {{hugs}}. Please take care of yourself and eachother.
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  • ((HUGS)) So sorry for your loss. I hope you have a refreshing and wonderful vacation.
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  • So sorry for your loss.  **hugs**
  • Even when you aren't here, you will be in our thoughts.

  • take care of yourself sweetie. ((hugs))
    TTC with severe MFI since 9/08 IVF w/ ICSI #1 May/June 2010= BFP twins
    Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers
    FET #1 April 2011= BFN
    FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
    FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138 Pregnancy Ticker
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  • Take care of you.

    :HUGS::

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • I am so so very sorry. I have been away for a few days and just saw. ((hugs)) Sweetie. Please don't worry about others and just take care of you. ((hugs))
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  • Enjoy your vacation and I am so, so sorry for what you have gone through. I'll be thinking of you.
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  • I'm so sorry.  Please take care of yourself.
  • I'm so sorry for your loss.

    Enjoy your vacation and we will be here for you when you are ready to come back.

     

    TTC #1 since June 2008 *SAIFW*

    TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs

  • I'm so sorry. 
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  • ((((HUGS)))) Take care of yourself and try to enjoy your vacation.
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  • I am so so sorry. Take all the time you need, we'll be here whenever you are ready. (((hugs)))
    Crohn's resulting in colectomy with J-Pouch surgery in 2000/2001.
    TTC since August 2008
    IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
    IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
    Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
    "Let it go, this too shall pass."
  • I'm so sorry sweetie.  My heart goes out to you.  ((Hugs)).

    TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
    2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
    IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
    IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN :(
    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
    Lap 7/21/10
    IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
    FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!

     

    James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!

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    Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!

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  • Big huge hugs to you and your hubby.

    I hope your vacation is just what you need to take care of yourself.

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    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
    Thank you IVF for our little miracles!!
  • Just wanted to let you know that I was thinking of you and to tell you again how sorry I am for your loss.  {{{Huge Huge Hugs}}}

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  • I am so so sorry for your loss.  It is not fair.

    Take care of yourself.  ((HUGS))

    *P/SAIFW* TTC since 1/08 Clomid, 2 IUIs, 4 IVFs, FET 7 losses Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I am so sorry for you loss. Take care of yourself sweetie ((HUGS)).
    Married 08.06
    Started TTC 05.08
    Me: Stage II endo, borderline high FSH
    DH: perfect
    1 lap, 5 IUIs = 4 BFNs and 1 c/p
    2 IVFs, 2 FETs = 1 BFN, 1 c/p, 1 ectopic and finally a sticky BFP in May 2011!

    Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker

    1 FET in Aug 2013 = BFP! 

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  • ::::::::::hugs::::::::::: I'm so sorry honey. It's not fair. I hope that your trip to the lake can help start healing your heart and mind. You're in my thoughts and prayers.
    S/PAIFW
    Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
    PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
    IVF #3
  • Just SO unfair. So sorry for your loss. ((((HUGS))))
    After 7 years of marriage and 5 unsuccessful IVFs, we have been granted the gift of adopting a baby boy, born 4/21/11.
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  • I am so sorry for your loss.  My heart is hurting for you.  I hope the break helps you heal.  Thinking of you. 
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    It took 5 failed IUIs and a failed IVF, but our FET worked!
    My pregnancy after Infertility Blog
    Our baby girl was born on April 27, 2011!
  • BIG ((Hugs)). I'm so sorry you are going through this again. Sounds like a vacation is just what you and your DH need. Take care of yourself.
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  • I am so very sorry for you loss - take as much time as you need from the board but know we are all here for you and thinking of you.  (((HUGS)))
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  • ej708ej708 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss, and hope getting away helps you begin to heal.  Take care of yourself.  ((Hugs))
    Our IVF miracles arrived on 7/20/11 at 37 weeks after 3 weeks of hospital bedrest! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers "Stubbornly persist, and you will find that the limits of your stubbornness go well beyond the stubbornness of your limits." ~Robert Brault
  • I am so so sorry for your loss!!  (((BIG HUGS)))  Try to take care of yourself and get a much needed break and try to relax at the lake.
    image TTC with PCOS since Feb. 07. Currently on a break to save $$ for IUI. Searching for My Mini M&M
  • Oh Rosie. Left HugRight Hug My heart is aching for you both. Take some time for yourselves, try to enjoy your vacation as best as possible. If you need anything at all please don't hesitate to call me. (((hugs)))

    DX PCOS w/IR 01/08.
    Currently pg with our 1st after 6.5 yrs of IF (thank you IVF)
     
    My IF/Everything Blog
    There's No Crying in Baseball
    ***My posts are always SAIFW**
  • Rosie, I just saw the update today.  I am so sorry for your loss.  I want to give you big hugs, you don't deserve everything you've been through and you're not failing your husband... your body is failing you.  I hope you're able to have a relaxing vacation.  Take care of yourself and we'll be here whenever you're ready to come back.  You'll be in my thoughts & prayers.  *hugs*
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  • I am so sorry for your loss. I can relate to all of your feelings of failure but it just isn't your fault at all! I hope you can relax a little and enjoy your vacation with your husband. ((Hugs))
    Natural BFP on 3/08
    C/P- at 6 weeks
    5 IUI's= BFN
    Dx: Endo stage 1 : evevated FSH (11.3)
    IVF#1: 3dt 2 8 cell, grade 1 embyos :bfn


    *(P)SAIFW*

    ~A lotus springs from mud~ Chinese proverb
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss. Enjoy your time away and take care of yourself.
    lap 9/09= mild endo & PCO (but not S) SA= normal IUI #1-#4= BFN IUI #5 cancelled- too many follies IVF #1 = BFP
  • again - i'm so very sorry for your loss.

    ((hugs))

    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • MoFreeMoFree member
    I'm so sorry for your loss.  Take care of yourself.  HOpe you're able to find peace and tranquility on vacation.
    TTC since 3-08 IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12

    FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN

    FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN

    No more frosties

    IVF #2. September 2014

    PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts

    SET November 9, 2014
    Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN

    Not sure where to go from here.

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    Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • Sometimes taking a break from here is good - I did it for a few weeks and just relaxed and it was the best thing for me.  I hope you get some r&r on your vacay!  Hugs to you...
    TTC since 3/07. IVF#1 = canceled. IVF#2 = 0% fertilization. IVF#3 = BFN. IVF#4 = c/p.  
    Moving forward with Adoption 2017!
  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  I hope you and your DH enjoy your vacation, it'll be good for you to get away.  Your in my thoughts.
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  • I am so so sorry for your loss.  I really hope your trip can help you heal a little bit.  ((huge hugs))
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  • grazygrazy member

    I am so, so sorry.?

    DS born 7.30.11
  • ((HUGS)) cutie.

    I'm so sorry.

    We'll be here when you're ready to come back.  For now, take time to heal.

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    Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
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