FUIF

whispergrrl

Got the call - cycle cancelled. My estradiol came back at 2600. I asked my doctor what number he was looking for (I had no idea what normal was), and he said around 700-800....1000 if he wanted to be really aggressive. Needless to say, I'm WAY too high. So, no trigger. He says he can't risk overstimulating me. *sigh*

He did say that we can use an OPK and TI on our own without trigger on the off chance that I might ovulate on my own, but that it is too risky to give me any more meds right now.

I don't know if I should bother with an OPK or not. I have PCOS, and I thought that OPKs weren't really very accurate for PCOS girls?

I have one "mature" follicle - at 20. Just tonight, I noticed EWCM when I went to the bathroom. Maybe I will buy an OPK tomorrow and test it out. Can't hurt, right?

I'm just so angry that yet again, I have nothing good to show for all this crap. Then I get mad at myself for being upset, knowing that so many ladies on here have gone through so much more than I have. But...I still want to throw myself on the floor and have a temper tantrum. *sigh*

So, for now, the plan is to possibly do an OPK and have a little lovin'....and hope for the best. If AF doesn't show on her own by around CD30ish, I will take a HPT. Assuming it is negative, I will do prometrium and start all over. If AF shows on her own, I gotta call the doctor and go in for baseline monitoring to make sure my ovaries go back to normal and all is well before starting meds again,

I don't know what comes next, though. This was my third cycle of injectibles. I'm just so frustrated. 

scubalaura05

I'm sorry your cycle was cancelled- and I totally understand wanting to throw a temper-tantrum. I hope things look up soon and you can move forward with a fresh plan.

nina&matt

Im sorry. :-( That reallly sucks. The EWCM is probably due to the high estradiol, at least that's the excuse my RE always gave me. I hope you do O on your own though. A 20mm follie sounds promising. Keeping my fingers crossed for you!

scubalaura05

scubalaura05:

I'm sorry your cycle was cancelled- and I totally understand wanting to throw a temper-tantrum. I hope things look up soon and you can move forward with a fresh plan.

scratch the part about moving forward with a new plan. I hope that 20mm follie does it for you. There's still hope! 

whispergrrl

Considering I don't know if I've EVER O'ed on my own, I'm not real hopeful this cycle. Of course, it had been years since I had AF without the aid of BCPs or prometrium, and AF came on her own for the last two cycles...so who knows. At this point, I think my body is just fvcking with me. I think I've officially turned bitter. 

Well, there's always next month, right? And the month after that...and the month after that....

Off to bed now.....I have to get up early and entertain my stepdaughter tomorrow while DH works (she is coming to spend the next 3 days with us).

Night ladies...and thanks for the well wishes. 

Edwina.McDunnough

I'm so sorry that your cycle was canceled and your frustration is completely understandable. I really really hope that you ovulate on your own and that this cycle is it for you.

etoyama

((hugs)) I am so sorry your cycle was cancelled. It doesn't matter what other people have or have not been through - you are more than allowed to be upset! FU IF!!

whispergrrl

Thanks, ladies. I just hate feeling like this. I try so hard to be optimistic each cycle, only to get bad news at the end of each one. I get excited to start new treatments...and then they don't work. I know I can't expect to take a magic pill and have everything be perfect (though I would love it if that was possible!), but I just hate feeling like nothing is going to work for me. 

I'm ready to see what my doctor comes up with next....so I can try to be optimistic! 

kthappy76

I'm sorry, but hope you can salvage the cycle w/TI.  GL!

Dragonfly1226

I am so sorry hon. This must be beyond frustrating! 

I would think about scheduling an appointment with your RE to talk about your next steps. You deserve to know what the new plan is (since I am assuming they have to change something).

(((((hugehugs))))) 

njohnson1972

I am so sorry.  I don't have any advice - I have only done IVF.