I feel bad for smudge.
The past few days, I've been feeling really dejected (the whole job situation, which is only getting worse, is really getting to me). Every pain has me checking toilet paper, so we've been checking on smudge with the doppler, which we don't usually do this frequently.
Typically we've been checking 1, maybe 2 times a week, usually after work. This weekend, i'd say Smudge has gotten a listen to every day for the last 3 days.
HB is great, 140-160 every time. But the funny comes in how much Smudge HATES the doppler. We usually have to play chase the baby, because s/he moves away from the doppler. I'm pretty sure s/he's also kicked the doppler a couple of times (i didn't feel anything, but when you aren't moving the doppler and there's a loud thump, i can't imagine what else it could be).
I'm glad I have the doppler. it eases my fears after a bad day at work or a sharp pain... but I have to wonder if I'm a bad mom for using it - especially when it seems the baby really doesn't like it. (we do turn it on and off with the probe on my belly, to eliminate the screechy noises.)

Re: doppling fun?
Haha - I must say that your post literally has me laughing out loud
I don't think you are a bad mom at all for listening (even if Smudge seems not to like it too much). It just shows how much you care about little Smudge. There will probably be tons of times when (as parents) you have to do something little Smudge might not like because you know it is for the best. I think that setting you mind at ease by hearing the sweet sound of your baby's HB is for the best
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I was laughing as I was typing it.
I don't even ask DH if we can dopple (what I call it) anymore... i just ask him if he wants to play chase the baby.
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You are too cute. There is nothing you could do to make you a bad mom. Your every move is directed by love and caring.
If it makes you feel any better- my little buddy, with out fail, kicks the doctor every time she comes near me with the doppler.
ETA: and I am sorry about the job situation.... I wish things would have worked out differently.
On friday, I got "reprimanded" by my assistant manager and my charge nurse for wearing gloves in triage. They asked me why I was wearing them, and I answered "i wear gloves whenever I touch a patient". TO make it even better - we don''t have a SINK in the triage room, so I can't even wash my hands between patients. and i'm getting spoken to because I'm wearing gloves?!
You should have seen my asst mgrs face when she came back out later while I was triaging a coughing respiratory patient with a fever. And I was wearing a mask. She almost lost it.
Nice right?
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My God! As a patient, I would be happy to see you taking these precautions! I wouldn't want to leave with even more ailments than I came in with. WTH?
I have to admit, I was a bit reluctant to get a doppler. I kept hearing that it would only give me more anxiety if I couldn't find the HB, and the last thing I needed after my IVF cycle was more anxiety. BUT, then, my close friend, who was just about a week behind me in her pregnancy, had a miscarriage. The very next day I ordered our doppler. I just needed the reassurance!
It took us a couple of days to finally track down the HB, but after that I've been able to find it within a few seconds, and it gives me the biggest high of relief...every single time.
In the last few days we've noticed that the baby is moving around more and I'm having to chase it down. The hubster says "The baby is moving because it doesn't like the sound!!!" At which I just roll my eyes, but maybe it's true! (Sorry, baby, I don't care!)
I am so relieved that I ordered the doppler. I haven't regretted it for a second.