Dianah

JenniferTCU

Hey there! How are you doing? Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you. I hope things have improved and you were able to work together on some viable solutions. My thoughts and prayers are with you!

dianah36

Thanks, Jenn. I wish I could say that I'm doing okay. But I'm not. I feel like I have to fight through each day just to make it through. I haven't felt this bad since my bought with PPD. I've even been thinking about going back on anti-depressants. But I dont' think I"m depressed, I just have overwhelming anxiety and sadness. I want my life back and I'm terrified that it will never happen. My husband has done a 180 and says he can't live without me, will be around forever, etc. But this has just rocked me to the core. And to top it off we're still trying to get rid of the bed bugs that we discovered a month ago (and have no idea where we got them). We've tossed out our bed adn mattress and spent 1k on exterminators without luck. We're now going to have to go to a thermal solution where they heat your house to 140 degrees for several hours - it's a guarantee but it costs 3k (which we don't have). And what if we get them again? I cannot take anymore stress. I have no peace in my life.

Thanks for checking in, I appreciate it. This is probably the most difficult period of my life. I don't want a divorce. I don't want to be a single mother. I don't want my daughter to have her life ripped apart.

Peppernut

The bed bugs are still around TOO?

It seems like a little thing, but when you have as much stress as you do, everything is much harder to deal with.  I am so, so sorry.

I'm happy that your husband has changed his tune, but it so sucks that you'll have to work to be able to relax and trust him again.  We're pulling for you! 

JenniferTCU

D, do you think something just happened on that particular day that made him question his life and existence, etc? Maybe he was just having a really, really off day. I know this does nothing to calm your fears of it resurfacing but his "unsettling period" didn't last long so maybe that's the case?

I am so sorry about all you are going through. Just remember you have friends here if you need to vent, cry, scream, whatever. We've all seen each other through so much.

I am so sorry about the bed bug issue