I'm still on my break, just wanting an outlet today.

noah-bear

Today is 6 months since the first m/c. I have no one to talk to and no where to go. No one in my family understands the pain I'm in and DH is OOT until the 18th. 

I think about this place all the time. Things I want to tell you all, wondering how everyone is, things like that. I lurk at night to see how everyone is doing and if people got BFP's or unfortunate news (like I saw yesterday).

I don't know where I'd be without TB. I'm in counseling. I've had a couple sessions and it's going well. She wants me to let my whole truth out, but I'm not ready for that. I will be soon and I hope it will help.

Anyway. I didn't have anything particular to say other than I'm in a "poor pitiful me" mood. DS's speech therapist saw my necklace on the table yesterday (DS broke it) and asked what the dates meant. She cried :-( I was able to hold off until after she left. In one month I would have been due. If the LO had followed DS, I could have had another LO two weeks ago. People are even asking when we're going to try again. I can't even bring myself to answer. 

With DH gone and me not wanting to be around my family, I'm very lonely. I can't stop eating as well, but that's a different issue. ((Hugs to everyone)) and I'll be back next week. Maybe 

writergirl5786

((hugs)) darling. we love and miss you. seriously. ((HUGE HUGS))

KiKiMe

I am sorry you are feeling this way Noah. :::hugs:::

CarrieLeigh84

I'm sorry you're hurting Noah. You'll be in my T&P.

DoingItRight

{{{{{{Hugs}}}}}  I am so sorry that you are having to go though all of this without your DH being around.

KristysRedBarn

Hugs.  It sounds like you have a lot going on.  I hope things get better for you.

sunshinenva

Noah I am sorry to hear your in such emotional pain.  I am happy to hear your are in therapy,,,that is great!

You will get past this as you have many times before.  May I suggest that you find a place to take a walk.  Give your body some exercise to get those endorphines going and then you will not feel as bad about the eating. I understand the mindless eating. 

I know you are not thrilled about your neighborhood so make sure you take a walk in a safe place.

HUGS!!!

michrocc

We love you, Noah.  We're ALWAYS here for you and we know that you need some space right now.  No worries, there, okay? 

I know you're TTA until January - I am, too, now.  You always have a friend in me through all of that.   

 

I'm so sorry you're dealing with all of this with your DH OOT.  ::::hugs::::

mlmtgg

I am sorry that it feels like it is all crashing in right now. We are here for you - breaks are a good thing, but when you need us, we are here. I am glad to hear you are in counseling. Not an easy process - but so important to have an outlet and a person to talk with.

*hugs*

dondraandluis

I'm sorry you are having a rough time (((hugs)))

EntropicEpona

{hugs} to you, noah. I'm so sorry you're having a crappy time. I agree with you, though...this place (the bump) which brings me so much pain also brings me so such comfort.

bbhalphen

I'm sorry!

Shemico

*big hugs*

butterfly843

Sending hugs.