So after nearly 2 years, you would think I would just be to the point where I know it will be a negative and won't get my hopes up. But I always do. Especially this month. It was our 1st IUI and we thought maybe it would happen finally, but no such luck. Do they ever get easier? Or am I destined to sit at my desk once a month at work bawling my eyes out and praying my co-workers don't notice?
I am at 18 months now and so far they are still hard.
Even this month when I know there were no follies (via u/s) the BFN still hurt. Might have something to do with the fact AF still is not here and I thought just maybe... but alas it was bfn
They have a little for me. I don't put faith in timed int anymore, so I never expect that to work. It's tough after treatments, but by the 3rd iui I didn't expect much either. The ivf bfn was the worst ever, but the next year in a break (doing ti) was a little easier. Hugs!
I don't think so...she pretty much always sucks. Even from what I've read on the adoption board even when you move on to a new plan to grow your family, you seldom find peace with a BFN or arrival of AF.
Re: Do BFNs ever get easier?
I am at 18 months now and so far they are still hard.
Even this month when I know there were no follies (via u/s) the BFN still hurt. Might have something to do with the fact AF still is not here and I thought just maybe... but alas it was bfn
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
TTC #2 since 4/09
Unexplained Secondary IF
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4 failed rounds of clomid ~ 4 failed IUIs ~ 1 m/c
2/3/11: IUI #5 - Femara/Follistim/Ovidrel/Crinone = BFP (2/14)!!!
Beta #1 (12dpiui): 53 Beta #2 (14dpiui): 203 Beta #3 (20dpiui): 3932 Beta #4 (28dpiui): 60,775
1st U/S (3/3): 2 sacs & yolks 2nd U/S (3/8) 2 heartbeats-TWINS!
Baby A:6w6d HR 131 Baby B:6w4d HR 124
TWINS!! EDD 10/25/2011
"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..."
never.
with my expierence, i've done at least 100 of them. my anxiety rises each time. i have stopped for this reason. i cant bare the negative.
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
I don't think so...she pretty much always sucks. Even from what I've read on the adoption board even when you move on to a new plan to grow your family, you seldom find peace with a BFN or arrival of AF.
I'm so sorry it didn't work this month.