Back from WTF appt.

k827

I sat and waited for my appointment for a whole hour. So much for going in early. Dumb. Anyways. I got the usual.."bad luck" I just sat there like stone. I couldn't talk or move. I wasn't surprised by the answer or anything is just how the hell in a year and a half of treaments and  12 "perfect" 8 cell grade 1 embryo's just be bad luck. Like seriously I think people should steer clear from me cause I don't want anyone to catch my bad luck.

She went over a what an FET would like like..lurpon..estrace...prog supps..then she was like have you tried PIO yet? I was like yes at my old clinic that is what they used..she was just like oh..like..oops..i guess my back up plan of telling her PIO might do the trick didn't work.

I asked her about any other testing we would do. I guess all other blood clotting factors would just be treated with Lovenox and baby asprin which I already am doing. She mentioned some homeosytein (sp?) bw that I will go back Monday for. I guess if its pos. you take a b12 with extra folic acid.

I'll be doing Lovenox and baby asprin before the ET per my request. It just makes me feel better. 

I am on a break. I have no hope right now and that's no way to cycle. I brought up surrogacy to H and he wasn't really feeling it. It's hard to have a convo about something as serious as that anyways on the phone(he's driving back from VT) I feel like giving up...he wants me to keep going

Oh she did mention if I was seeing a therapist and I replied yes...and she was like have you considered meds for depression???? Really..I'm depressed now cause I'm crying? Lady, Maybe I am crying because it's been 3 1/2 years and I am still not pg and we are broke!!!!!!

ugh.

 

miesl

I am so sorry your appointment went so terribly.

Maybe you've already answered this - but why are you doing 3dt (i'm assuming from the perfect 8 cell) instead of 5dt?

k827

miesl:

I am so sorry your appointment went so terribly.

Maybe you've already answered this - but why are you doing 3dt (i'm assuming from the perfect 8 cell) instead of 5dt?

They only do 3dt at my clinic.

Yellow_Daisy

Oh wow.  I am so sorry that you really didn't get any answers.  I wish I had them because I would give them to you.  (((hugs)))

As for meds for depression it isn't always such a bad thing.  Sometimes we don't realize we are depressed until we get on meds and see how much better life is. I took anti depressants for a short while and they really helped a lot.  I am not saying you are depressed but IF is overwhelming and completely depressing.  It may be something to consider for a couple weeks to see if you notice any difference.

Hang in there.

njohnson1972

I am sorry about your RE and crappy appointment.

(((hugs)))

2bKEdwards

I'm sorry the appt was so crappy.  That is so frustrating ((hugs))

k827

Yellow_Daisy:

Oh wow.  I am so sorry that you really didn't get any answers.  I wish I had them because I would give them to you.  (((hugs)))

As for meds for depression it isn't always such a bad thing.  Sometimes we don't realize we are depressed until we get on meds and see how much better life is. I took anti depressants for a short while and they really helped a lot.  I am not saying you are depressed but IF is overwhelming and completely depressing.  It may be something to consider for a couple weeks to see if you notice any difference.

Hang in there.

I just want to clarify that I am not against taking depression meds if I needed them. The only time I feel depressed is when I think about IF or when I have to go to those dreaded appointments. 

DeputiesWife

I am so sorry about your RE appointment.

::HUGS::

patchen30

I'm so sorry.  Your frustration is totally justified and understandable.  ((Big hugs)) to you.  Take a break if you need to heal, and if you're ready to move onto something else, best of luck with it.  But even if you're out of hope, we have hope for you, and if you find the strength to cycle again we will all be pulling for you.  

Kiki11

(((hugs))) I know how frustrated you must be.  It took us 5 IVFs (4 fresh, 1 frozen) and 13 'perfect' embryos before we finally found one that wanted to stick around.  My last IVF we were very aggressive and transferred 4 perfect 'high implant potential' embryos.  Have you had a hysteroscopy/D&C done?  My doctor did one after my 3rd IVF failed and found tiny irregularities in the lining of my uterus.  He removed them and it was only after this that we finally had more successful implantation. 

FabulousMrs.P

I don't have anything to add...I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am that the doctors aren't offering any more answers. ((HUGS)). I'll be thinking of you.

Dragonfly1226

I am just so sorry hon. I hate that you are going through this and the fact that nobody seems to have any answers for you.

Have you considered a phone consult at one of the big clinics like CCRM or SIRM?

Sending you lots of (((((hugs))))). 

Stuckinthemiddle

I'm so sorry hon.  I absolutely hate it when my RE says that it was "bad luck" or "a fluke."  It may or may not be the case, but that is not helpful, comforting, or encouraging in any way.  

I feel so badly for you right now, I wish I could literally reach through this computer and hug you.  Its so not fair.  We are here for you. 

roselln2

I'm so sorry that your appointment didn't go well and you didn't get all the answers. Big (((hugs))) Whenever you decide to move forward with your FET, I wish you the best of luck and lots of sticky baby dust!

lovemymonkey

(((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))

ichoosehope

I am so sorry that your appointment didn't go too well (especially after all that you went through yesterday scheduling it!).

BIG (((HUGS)))

vawad82

I'm so sorry the doc couldn't be of more use .... ((hugs)) ... best of luck!!

juliannat

I'm so sorry you had such a crappy appt. (((HUGS)))

PoeticJustice

((HUGS)) Sweetie

grazy

I am sorry!

rachel06

BIG HUGS sweetie! I am so sorry.