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Back from WTF appt.

I sat and waited for my appointment for a whole hour. So much for going in early. Dumb. Anyways. I got the usual.."bad luck" I just sat there like stone. I couldn't talk or move. I wasn't surprised by the answer or anything is just how the hell in a year and a half of treaments and  12 "perfect" 8 cell grade 1 embryo's just be bad luck. Like seriously I think people should steer clear from me cause I don't want anyone to catch my bad luck.

She went over a what an FET would like like..lurpon..estrace...prog supps..then she was like have you tried PIO yet? I was like yes at my old clinic that is what they used..she was just like oh..like..oops..i guess my back up plan of telling her PIO might do the trick didn't work.

I asked her about any other testing we would do. I guess all other blood clotting factors would just be treated with Lovenox and baby asprin which I already am doing. She mentioned some homeosytein (sp?) bw that I will go back Monday for. I guess if its pos. you take a b12 with extra folic acid.

I'll be doing Lovenox and baby asprin before the ET per my request. It just makes me feel better. 

I am on a break. I have no hope right now and that's no way to cycle. I brought up surrogacy to H and he wasn't really feeling it. It's hard to have a convo about something as serious as that anyways on the phone(he's driving back from VT) I feel like giving up...he wants me to keep going

Oh she did mention if I was seeing a therapist and I replied yes...and she was like have you considered meds for depression???? Really..I'm depressed now cause I'm crying? Lady, Maybe I am crying because it's been 3 1/2 years and I am still not pg and we are broke!!!!!!

ugh.

 

TTC since 12/ 06: H/Azoospermia Ivf#1 BFP m/c 5w3d FET#1 c/p FET# 2 BFN IVF#2 BFFN IVF#3 March/April

Re: Back from WTF appt.

  • mieslmiesl member

    I am so sorry your appointment went so terribly.

    Maybe you've already answered this - but why are you doing 3dt (i'm assuming from the perfect 8 cell) instead of 5dt?

    Husband has cystic fibrosis. I'm a carrier. We did TESE, IVF, ICSI, and PGD. After two failed IVFs, we were blessed with our twins.

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  • imagemiesl:

    I am so sorry your appointment went so terribly.

    Maybe you've already answered this - but why are you doing 3dt (i'm assuming from the perfect 8 cell) instead of 5dt?

    They only do 3dt at my clinic.

    TTC since 12/ 06: H/Azoospermia Ivf#1 BFP m/c 5w3d FET#1 c/p FET# 2 BFN IVF#2 BFFN IVF#3 March/April
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  • Oh wow.  I am so sorry that you really didn't get any answers.  I wish I had them because I would give them to you.  (((hugs)))

    As for meds for depression it isn't always such a bad thing.  Sometimes we don't realize we are depressed until we get on meds and see how much better life is. I took anti depressants for a short while and they really helped a lot.  I am not saying you are depressed but IF is overwhelming and completely depressing.  It may be something to consider for a couple weeks to see if you notice any difference.

    Hang in there.

    TTC since 8/2004
    Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
    DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
    DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
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  • I am sorry about your RE and crappy appointment.

    (((hugs)))

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  • I'm sorry the appt was so crappy.  That is so frustrating ((hugs))
    After 20 months, 5 IUIs, PCOS, Endo and IVF, our baby is here! Full IF history in blog
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  • imageYellow_Daisy:

    Oh wow.  I am so sorry that you really didn't get any answers.  I wish I had them because I would give them to you.  (((hugs)))

    As for meds for depression it isn't always such a bad thing.  Sometimes we don't realize we are depressed until we get on meds and see how much better life is. I took anti depressants for a short while and they really helped a lot.  I am not saying you are depressed but IF is overwhelming and completely depressing.  It may be something to consider for a couple weeks to see if you notice any difference.

    Hang in there.

    I just want to clarify that I am not against taking depression meds if I needed them. The only time I feel depressed is when I think about IF or when I have to go to those dreaded appointments. 

    TTC since 12/ 06: H/Azoospermia Ivf#1 BFP m/c 5w3d FET#1 c/p FET# 2 BFN IVF#2 BFFN IVF#3 March/April
  • I am so sorry about your RE appointment.

    ::HUGS::

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • I'm so sorry.  Your frustration is totally justified and understandable.  ((Big hugs)) to you.  Take a break if you need to heal, and if you're ready to move onto something else, best of luck with it.  But even if you're out of hope, we have hope for you, and if you find the strength to cycle again we will all be pulling for you.  

    TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
    2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
    IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
    IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN :(
    IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
    Lap 7/21/10
    IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
    FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!

     

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  • (((hugs))) I know how frustrated you must be.  It took us 5 IVFs (4 fresh, 1 frozen) and 13 'perfect' embryos before we finally found one that wanted to stick around.  My last IVF we were very aggressive and transferred 4 perfect 'high implant potential' embryos.  Have you had a hysteroscopy/D&C done?  My doctor did one after my 3rd IVF failed and found tiny irregularities in the lining of my uterus.  He removed them and it was only after this that we finally had more successful implantation. 
    TTC with unexplained IF since 8/2007 6 losses, one beautiful perfect boy in our arms Lilypie Premature Baby tickers
  • I don't have anything to add...I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am that the doctors aren't offering any more answers. ((HUGS)). I'll be thinking of you.

    After 2 years of TTC, our daughter was born on Oct 31, 2011!
    7lbs 13oz  20 inches long
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  • I am just so sorry hon. I hate that you are going through this and the fact that nobody seems to have any answers for you.

    Have you considered a phone consult at one of the big clinics like CCRM or SIRM?

    Sending you lots of (((((hugs))))). 

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    After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!

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    After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!

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  • I'm so sorry hon.  I absolutely hate it when my RE says that it was "bad luck" or "a fluke."  It may or may not be the case, but that is not helpful, comforting, or encouraging in any way.  

    I feel so badly for you right now, I wish I could literally reach through this computer and hug you.  Its so not fair.  We are here for you. 

    TTC Child #1 Sept '08, Dx: Unexplained, DOR 2 IUI's = BFN, m/c, IVF 1 = 0 embies to put back, IVF 2 = BFN, IVF 3 = cancelled, IVF 4 = BFP with 1 embie. Our son came into our life on 9/28/11. We are in love! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • I'm so sorry that your appointment didn't go well and you didn't get all the answers. Big (((hugs))) Whenever you decide to move forward with your FET, I wish you the best of luck and lots of sticky baby dust!
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  • (((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))
    After 5 years of TTC, 3 IUIs, 5 IVFs, 2 FETs, multiple losses and an adoption that wasn
  • I am so sorry that your appointment didn't go too well (especially after all that you went through yesterday scheduling it!).

    BIG (((HUGS)))

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  • I'm so sorry the doc couldn't be of more use .... ((hugs)) ... best of luck!!
  • I'm so sorry you had such a crappy appt. (((HUGS)))
    B/G twins!
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  • ((HUGS)) Sweetie
    May 06: Natural PG= m/c, July 09: TI= m/c, November 09: TI=BFN, December 09: IUI= c/p
    IVF#1: start stims 1/26; ER 2/8; ET 2/13= BFN; FET#1: May 2010= m/c *NEW CLINIC Jan 2011* IVF#2: start stims 1/12; ER 1/22; ET 1/27= BFN; IVF#3: TBD
    ~SAIFW/PAIFW~
  • grazygrazy member
    I am sorry! :(
    DS born 7.30.11
  • BIG HUGS sweetie! I am so sorry.
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