I sat and waited for my appointment for a whole hour. So much for going in early. Dumb. Anyways. I got the usual.."bad luck" I just sat there like stone. I couldn't talk or move. I wasn't surprised by the answer or anything is just how the hell in a year and a half of treaments and 12 "perfect" 8 cell grade 1 embryo's just be bad luck. Like seriously I think people should steer clear from me cause I don't want anyone to catch my bad luck.
She went over a what an FET would like like..lurpon..estrace...prog supps..then she was like have you tried PIO yet? I was like yes at my old clinic that is what they used..she was just like oh..like..oops..i guess my back up plan of telling her PIO might do the trick didn't work.
I asked her about any other testing we would do. I guess all other blood clotting factors would just be treated with Lovenox and baby asprin which I already am doing. She mentioned some homeosytein (sp?) bw that I will go back Monday for. I guess if its pos. you take a b12 with extra folic acid.
I'll be doing Lovenox and baby asprin before the ET per my request. It just makes me feel better.
I am on a break. I have no hope right now and that's no way to cycle. I brought up surrogacy to H and he wasn't really feeling it. It's hard to have a convo about something as serious as that anyways on the phone(he's driving back from VT) I feel like giving up...he wants me to keep going
Oh she did mention if I was seeing a therapist and I replied yes...and she was like have you considered meds for depression???? Really..I'm depressed now cause I'm crying? Lady, Maybe I am crying because it's been 3 1/2 years and I am still not pg and we are broke!!!!!!
ugh.
Re: Back from WTF appt.
I am so sorry your appointment went so terribly.
Maybe you've already answered this - but why are you doing 3dt (i'm assuming from the perfect 8 cell) instead of 5dt?
They only do 3dt at my clinic.
Oh wow. I am so sorry that you really didn't get any answers. I wish I had them because I would give them to you. (((hugs)))
As for meds for depression it isn't always such a bad thing. Sometimes we don't realize we are depressed until we get on meds and see how much better life is. I took anti depressants for a short while and they really helped a lot. I am not saying you are depressed but IF is overwhelming and completely depressing. It may be something to consider for a couple weeks to see if you notice any difference.
Hang in there.
Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
I am sorry about your RE and crappy appointment.
(((hugs)))
~Life After Infertility~
I just want to clarify that I am not against taking depression meds if I needed them. The only time I feel depressed is when I think about IF or when I have to go to those dreaded appointments.
I am so sorry about your RE appointment.
::HUGS::
TTC #2 since June '08
~*DD 10.21.07*~
dx unexplained
IUI #1-4 BFN
IVF#1 June 2011 BFN
IVF#2 Dec 2011
Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634
EDD 8/25
*PAIFW/SAIFW*
TTC in 2008. Stage II/III endo, Hashimotos hypothyroid, low morph (3%).
2 cycles Clomid/Ovidrel/TI/Crinone=BFN.
IUI #1 - 4 Follistim/Ovidrel/IUI/Crinone = BFN.
IVF #1 - Antagonist w/ ICSI 4/10. 17 retrieved, 5DT of 2, BFN
IVF #2 - Long Lupron w/ ICSI 6/10. 15 retrieved, 3DT of 2, BFFN!!
Lap 7/21/10
IVF #3 - Clomid/Antagonist w/ ICSI 10/10. 14 retreived, 3DT of 3, BFP 10/20 but m/c. No HB 11/15/10 - D&C 11/17/10.
FET - 2 blasts, 1 survived the thaw. Transfer 2/19. Beta #1 3/1 375, Beta #2 3/3 885, Beta #3 3/8 4261, Beta #4 3/11 9005. U/S 3/8 1 sac 1 yolk, U/S 3/16 1 heartbeat 114bpm!
James born Oct. 24th 2011 via c-section at 38 weeks!
Surprise BFP - Jack born April 28, 2013 via VBAC after PTL at 33 1/2 weeks!
I don't have anything to add...I just wanted to tell you how sorry I am that the doctors aren't offering any more answers. ((HUGS)). I'll be thinking of you.
7lbs 13oz 20 inches long
I am just so sorry hon. I hate that you are going through this and the fact that nobody seems to have any answers for you.
Have you considered a phone consult at one of the big clinics like CCRM or SIRM?
Sending you lots of (((((hugs))))).
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
I'm so sorry hon. I absolutely hate it when my RE says that it was "bad luck" or "a fluke." It may or may not be the case, but that is not helpful, comforting, or encouraging in any way.
I feel so badly for you right now, I wish I could literally reach through this computer and hug you. Its so not fair. We are here for you.
I am so sorry that your appointment didn't go too well (especially after all that you went through yesterday scheduling it!).
BIG (((HUGS)))
IVF#1: start stims 1/26; ER 2/8; ET 2/13= BFN; FET#1: May 2010= m/c *NEW CLINIC Jan 2011* IVF#2: start stims 1/12; ER 1/22; ET 1/27= BFN; IVF#3: TBD
~SAIFW/PAIFW~