Wow..

kndeckar

I was just reading through all the responses in Carrie's post and I am a blubbering mess. Its a mix of feeling relief and comfort that there are other people that feel the EXACT same way as I do and also feeling extremely sad and depressed that all of us have had to go through loss after loss.  Then on top of it, hearing about Allison's loss today, I am starting to not be on speaking terms with God either, as some of you put it. I feel like a hypocrite even going to church anymore because I am so mad at God and all I can focus on is all the FH's in the congregation.

I guess I just want to say ((((((hugs))))) to all of you girls. And while I am not doing very well after this 3rd loss and taking a TTC break, I think I would be doing much worse without this board.....

 

bbhalphen

I've had that feeling a lot too.  DH talks to me about it, and I think it's getting a little better...for now.  I'm still very, very bitter.  ::BIG hugs::

heathergirl67

I know exactly what you're saying.  It's all so hard on it's own.  But when all of that unfairness piles up at once... it's almost unbearable.

grr_aargh

Here's where I stand:  Whether you go to church or not right now - wherever your heart is, whatever bitterness and anger and hatred you're feeling, God can take it.

I also don't believe in a universe where God does this to people, only a universe where God is loving and supportive and is saying "WTF" right along with us.  (I could get into an extensive theological explanation of my feelings on this, but honestly, it's lengthy and kind of boring.  If you'd like, feel free to page back through my blog, as I've discussed it at length there).

In the end, I'm just heartbroken.  Heartbroken.  It makes me so sad to see this happen again and again and again to excellent, amazing people.  My husband cried for Allison and Mark today, you know.  Because he knows.  And it's just so wrong. 

LMichelleG

grr_aargh:

Here's where I stand:  Whether you go to church or not right now - wherever your heart is, whatever bitterness and anger and hatred you're feeling, God can take it.

I also don't believe in a universe where God does this to people, only a universe where God is loving and supportive and is saying "WTF" right along with us.  (I could get into an extensive theological explanation of my feelings on this, but honestly, it's lengthy and kind of boring.  If you'd like, feel free to page back through my blog, as I've discussed it at length there).

In the end, I'm just heartbroken.  Heartbroken.  It makes me so sad to see this happen again and again and again to excellent, amazing people.  My husband cried for Allison and Mark today, you know.  Because he knows.  And it's just so wrong. 

Couldn't have said it better myself!! I am right there with you on this!

JuJuBe3

grr_aargh:

Here's where I stand:  Whether you go to church or not right now - wherever your heart is, whatever bitterness and anger and hatred you're feeling, God can take it.

I also don't believe in a universe where God does this to people, only a universe where God is loving and supportive and is saying "WTF" right along with us.  (I could get into an extensive theological explanation of my feelings on this, but honestly, it's lengthy and kind of boring.  If you'd like, feel free to page back through my blog, as I've discussed it at length there).

In the end, I'm just heartbroken.  Heartbroken.  It makes me so sad to see this happen again and again and again to excellent, amazing people.  My husband cried for Allison and Mark today, you know.  Because he knows.  And it's just so wrong. 

Yep, I have to ditto that too.  And I was pretty shaky about my faith after my second loss.  It's just devastating.  I just hope the support we give each other will help us all heal.