DH Vent- Longish

Temp937723687505543

Right now we're living in South Florida, which I hate.  Our plan is to move back to Louisiana, where I'm from and where my family still lives, in September.  The one thing I want more than anything else in the world, though, is to be a SAHM, and DH knows this.

So the other day, we got on the subject of how to cut expenses to make being a SAHM a possibility.  We were talking about  moving to a different area, closer to his work, cutting out one car, etc.  He told me "Whatever it is that will make you happy, we'll do it.  This is possible."  His boss knows he is leaving, but would like him to stay, so he said "Just say the word and I'll talk to my boss and make it happen."  So I spent two days agonizing over staying in a state that I don't particularly like and staying home with DD, or moving home to my family, whom I love and miss terribly, to a place that I also feel is a better environment for Anna.  I finally decided that staying home was my top priority right now.

I brought it up to DH again, and he was just very evasive and vague, and it suddenly became a non-issue.  We're still moving and I'll still be working full time in retail with crappy hours.  My big vent is this:  Knowing how desperately I want to SAH, why would he dangle that carrot in front of me, only to take it away?  I had gotten really excited and hopeful and then just this big crash.  I want to shake him and scream and cry.  I'm so disappointed.

 Thanks for letting me vent.  Now I have to go get dressed for work

Carmela752

I'm sorry.

As an aside, we both have baby Annas, and they even look kind of alike and both have tons of hair.

starryeyeddreamer

I'm sorry. I totally understand where you are coming from because I am trying so hard to find a way to become a SAHM. I tried explaining to DH that after gas & daycare - I am really only taking home $200 every two weeks & I am miserable at my job - I have been for a while. DH keeps saying that we need the $200 but it is so stressful & I don't feel like I am being the best mom I can be for LO at times. We are on my insurance too & have great benefits which makes it hard too. I would love to go down to one car & stuff & stay home with LO. We don't have a huge house but I wish we had a smaller mortgage too. I have been looking to watch other LOs in our home (since I have previous childcare experience but haven't had any success). GL & I hope it works out for you!