Betas. WTF. This is NEVER going to end.

ColindaP · June 2010

Beta draw from Friday, 8 days after the first failed ultrasound (drumroll please):

51,000

Yeah, that's right. No misplaced decimals. FIFTY-ONE THOUSAND. This miscarriage is never, ever going to happen. Going back in for more betas on Friday. Nurse prac, who before was 1000% in agreement with me about not having a D&C, is now saying we really need to think about where our expiration date is for letting my body do it on its own.

What a colossal fvcking failure. At least before, my body miscarried quickly and efficiently. What the fvck is this ***?! ETA: shiit damnit, shiit shiit shiit stupid bump nanny

Scout05 · June 2010

I am so sorry, Colleen.

Hon, seriously, the d&c is easy (physically) and then this could be over. I know you don't want to do it, but I hate watching you go through this.

Ashley858 · June 2010

Im so sorry. ((((Hugs))))

dondraandluis · June 2010

I'm so sorry Colleen. I wish it would happen for you. If you have to end up with the D&C it was pretty easy both times for me (((hugs)))

PeetiePie · June 2010

I'm sorry hon. It sucks just waiting it out - my body always hung on to dead babies like nobody's business. I've gone through the D&C twice and cytotec twice if you want any advice/opinions. I'm sorry this didn't just happen on it's own for you.

JuJuBe3 · June 2010

I'm so sorry. If you are sure you don't want a d&c, I'm wondering if cyctotec might be an option. They all suck, but sometimes they are better than waiting. Hugs.

ShellShockedMama · June 2010

I'm so sorry.

ColindaP · June 2010

My biggest thing with the D&C is not the fear of pain or anything from the procedure itself. It's that the ONLY thing I have in my corner right now is that my uterus is not all fvcked up. I am scared to death of being that 1% or whatever (hey, I'm already a 1% and 0.1% in other reproductive categories) where the D&C causes scarring, or my ute gets punctured or my cervix gets chopped off or some other nightmare. I can't afford to have absolutely no organs working.

ETA: my doc also has not even mentioned the possibility of cytotec to me, which makes me go hmmm....

KelinandKevin · June 2010

Oh Colleen, I am so sorry hun. That just doesn't seem fair at all. I hope something happens so the numbers drop slowly. ((((HUGS))))

babygirlpriest · June 2010

Oh sweetie I'm really, really sorry.

If the D&C isn't the way you want to go then I hope your body get's it's ass in gear soon...

KristysRedBarn · June 2010

I'm so very sorry.

PeetiePie · June 2010

ColindaP:
My biggest thing with the D&C is not the fear of pain or anything from the procedure itself. It's that the ONLY thing I have in my corner right now is that my uterus is not all fvcked up. I am scared to death of being that 1% or whatever (hey, I'm already a 1% and 0.1% in other reproductive categories) where the D&C causes scarring, or my ute gets punctured or my cervix gets chopped off or some other nightmare. I can't afford to have absolutely no organs working.
ETA: my doc also has not even mentioned the possibility of cytotec to me, which makes me go hmmm....

I had the same concerns about the D&C and that's why I opted for the cytotec both times - I only went for the D&C after the cyctotec didn't work on the second pg. I could have got another dose, but I just wanted to be done with it.

I think it's strange your doc didn't mention it. I would ask, that is if you would rather go that route.

mkoelker · June 2010

I am so so sorry.

BeachCole · June 2010

Oh, honey - that sucks, I am sorry. I agree with some of the other ladies - as much as I didn't want to do it, my D&C wasn't too bad. My body just wouldn't let it go. Big (hugs)

rjl07 · June 2010

I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. I hope your body starts figuring it out soon. Are they going to do another u/s to see what's going on?

eminbmore · June 2010

Oh hon

I am so sorry you're going through this. I don't have any good d&c advice, but I do have lots of love and hugs being sent your way.

vflipo · June 2010

I'm so so sorry hun!

babes12 · June 2010

i'm sorry. my body likes to hold onto babies that aren't supposed to be for some reason too. that's why i didnt hesitate to have the D&C. i just couldn't go on and wanted it over.

big (((HUGS))) you need to do what you feel is best.

AppleRidge · June 2010

WTF indeed. I understand your concerns about the D&C. Honestly, although I thought the procedure was pretty easy, I don't know if I'd opt to do another one due to the same fears. At the same time, though, I would also be a little freaked out about the small risk of infection from waiting too long.

bbhalphen · June 2010

I'm so sorry!

butterfly843 · June 2010

(((hugs)) so sorry.

3ltlones · June 2010

I am so sorry. I understand the thoughts on the D&C, I have had 2 and I had a D&E, I had serious complications with my D&E. I opted for cytotec when I lost my twins. I think that if you have to wait much longer I would question the doctor about it and see if they have any thoughts on it one way or another.

grr_aargh · June 2010

First off, a thousand curse words I cannot put here.

Secondly, I used cytotec and would be happy to discuss it with you if you need to.

Finally, I find that a lot of doctors still aren't using it despite plenty of medical evidence that it provides a cleaner/lower side-effect/lower need for d&c natural miscarriage than waiting. Honestly, I think it's a tradition/education thing. Don't be afraid to push your doc for it.

Will they do another u/s? I just want to be sure there's nothing else going on, kwim?

Feel free to FB message me if you want more details or to scream.

triple_sevens · June 2010

I'm so sorry, Colleen. I felt a similar ambivalence about my d&c. I went with it in the end and it was fine, but I don't think I would choose it again. I hope this resolves itself soon.

celestej619 · June 2010

(((hugs))) I am so so sorry.

ashleyy0219 · June 2010

I am so sorry (((hugs)))

Erin RN · June 2010

I'm so sorry Colleen:( I had to go through a D&C last time for the same reason. We never got an answer of why my body wasn't responding. I'm sorry you have to consider it:(

surfergirlkona · June 2010

I am very sorry

I wish I could say or do something to make things better. I can only offer my love and hugs.

nemattox · June 2010

Ugggh, that really sucks, Colleen. I'm so sorry you are going through this right now.

With betas that high, I honestly think you will be waiting quite a bit longer if you don't have some intervention.

I've done the wait it out for a natural, a D&C, and cytotec. My Dr. didn't bring up cytotec either, but when I did, he thought it was a good option. I would do it again, rather than wait weeks for nothing to happen. FB me if you have any questions about it.

((Hugs))

Shemico · June 2010

*hugs* I hope it has gone down a ton by this Friday. and if not, the actually d&c wasn't too bad, I found the waiting much worse.

summerbee1 · June 2010

I am so sorry. I completely understand your fears about the D&C. I hope you can find a solution that you are comfortable with (((HUGS))).

mdm2137 · June 2010

I am so, so sorry.

ERICA21779 · June 2010

(((hugs)))) Im so sorry.

kew243 · June 2010

((hugs)) I am so sorry. I can't believe it. I hope whatever you do, that it will happen soon.

cintim · June 2010

I am SO sorry your numbers are still so high. What a fvcking cruel joke to have betas that high. I totally understand not wanting the D&C but perhaps you should give your body the time limit and if it's not cooperating, then maybe revisit the D&C option. Big hugs.

gwennythepooh · June 2010

I'm so, so sorry that things are going this way. I had to go the d&c route and completely get your fears. It ended up fine, but it's hugely scary. I hope that you're able to get the solution that you are most comfortable with.

SweetieD21 · June 2010

Ugh. I totally feel your pain. I'm still waiting to m/c too, and the fetus STILL has a heartbeat!!! I think I might be heading towards a d&c too, but I'd really like to avoid it, if possible.