Hi ladies.
My LO will be 14 days old tomorrow and I saw my OB today regarding possible PPD. They're starting me on Zoloft - a very low dose - and I'm scheduled to see the OB's counselor a week from Tuesday.
I am disappointed in myself for alot of things. I'm having issues with breastfeeding. I hate that LO sleeps all day and is awake most of the night. I'm starting to dread getting up to feed or change her in the middle of the night, even though DH wakes up to help with her. I was so excited to be pregnant, to be in labor and have her here and now I am so overwhelmed by everything.
I guess I just started rambling ladies...sorry!
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Hi. I know it's easier said than done, but don't be disappointed! BF'ing doesn't work out for everyone - if you're committed to doing it, seek out support, if you feel like you would rather just exclusively pump or stop all together, that's ok too.
I too had those dreadful feelings of waking up to take care of ds in the night - even though my dh was wonderful too. My anxiety spiked around 6PM every night because I was anticipating getting up, being tired, not functioning.
Is there any way to see the counselor sooner? When I started talk therapy I started feeling better after the first session, and that in conjunction with the Lexapro I was taking worked wonders. Hopefully that happens for you too.
GL - we're here for you!
That was the soonest appointment she had. My OB requested early next week but she's booked solid all next week
DH also is going back to work on Monday too and I'll be home alone for the first time with LO since she's been born. Thankfully, DH can call every 2 hours to "check in" and I've got a friend who can come by to visit, which will hopefully make the transition to being alone easier...
Hi...first of all you are doing a great job. I know how hard it is to be a new momma. Every feeling you are having is, to me, normal, but I have serious anxiety and that did not help either. As PP said, if BFing is something you really want to work on, go see the LCs. I swear I was there just about once a week with DS for the first 5-6 weeks and they helped so much! Unfortunally, I got Thrush and an abscess and quite around 10 weeks. If you do stop, just know that the time you did spend BFing was very bennificial to LO.
I too am very hard on myself and I need someone to bring me back down to Earth sometimes several times a day so just try and relax. It is not easy and if someone told you it was, they are full of it. Hang in there and PM me if you want to talk some more. I know how important it is to have someone supporting you who has been through the tough parts. I am still dealing with my anxiety.
I was scared that first day dh went back to work too. I'm glad your dh will be able to call - and even better that your friend can come by. Don't be afraid to ask for help!
If you feel like you really need someone to talk to now (before your appt), many insurance plans offer a mental health hotline for times like these. Check with yours - it might make you feel better to know you have an option!
And come back here and "talk" to us - it made me feel better to come online and chat with the girls on 0-3 (this was before there was a PPD board).
GL!
From what I read in your post, the feelings that you are experiencing are part of PPD. I remember dreading mornings, I was not excited to get up and get LO when he got up. I do remember when the meds started working and I would wake up excited to see LO.
You will get better. You will become excited about being a mom. You will get to the point where it is not so hard. Being a mom is not easy, but it won't seem so monumental.
Hang in there!