Savannah Rose

indianasunshine

It is so late, and I can't believe am still awake.  I just finished writing this in my blog, but I wanted to share with all of you because I am having a very hard time.  I have had so many happy anniversaries lately...my egg retrieval, transfer, and BFP that I was nearly blindsided by the memory of the loss of Miller's twin.  If you were with me on TTC 35+, I am sure you already know this, but when we did IVF we put back two.  Both stuck at first, and on June 10th last year, we learned that we were pregnant with twins. Miller was in great shape, but his twin was lagging behind by several days and had a slow heartbeat.  We continued to hope for the best for both of our babies but soon learned that Twin B's heart had stopped.

I never really grieved the loss because I felt I had to be strong for Miller. DH and I made the choice to name the other baby even though we would never know if she was a girl or boy.  I have been thinking of her a great deal today and am so very sad.  One of my friends told me tonight that she thought it only made it harder that we named her, and I agreed.  I know it may be harder, but if her mommy and daddy can't remember her, then who will?

Thanks, all.  I needed to get that out. 

M.Amy

I am so sorry for your loss of little Savannah Rose.

robynlesley

I do remember and am so sorry.  You'll always mourn the loss of your child, no matter how long she was with you.

leffe1

What a beautiful name. I am sorry for your loss. Big hugs!!

vanverth

My thoughts are with you this day. 

daisydana

Maybe she is Miller's guardian angel today. You do need to grieve though. Let yourself. Hugs.

 

mama.bear

Oh sweetheart, I am so sorry. I can't believe I didn't know this!

We lost Robby's twin brother Andrew. Although the pain of his loss has dulled, I still grieve. I'm not looking forward to 6/26 - the day we found out Andrew was no longer alive. I know that feeling of deep sadness. I also know the need to hold it together for your fighting baby. Before that journey, I had never known such conflicting emotions.

Thank you for this post. I feel honored to hear about your sweet Savannah Rose. Our dear boys will always have angels watching over them!

 

pahokie

I'm so sorry you went through that.  I am glad to know that Miller has a guardian angel looking out for him.  Sending hugs and good thoughts for this tough time.

YaraC

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine what it must be like to have such conflicting emotions. (((hugs)))

superaunt

Oh honey, I'm soooo sorry you're in pain right now. And while this may not ease any of that pain, please know that you're not alone with your grief and that it is totally OK to feel what you're feeling. Name or no name (I actually wish we would've named our baby we lost in 08), you will never forget your little angel.

Daisiesinmygarden

I didn't know this part of your journey and I am very, very sorry for the loss of Miller's twin. I am sure naming the baby is so bittersweet, but Savannah Rose is a beautiful name.

Thank you for sharing her with us so we can all remember her.

carladillon

You chose such a beautiful name for her - I'm so sorry you're hurting right now.  I wish I had words to take that hurt away, but instead all I can offer is hugs.

fauxshelley

I have been a lurky lou lately, but I had to come out of lurkdom to say this -

I am so very sorry you lost your sweet Savannah, and I love her name.

stever

OMG! I'm so sorry for you guys. For your and DH's loss and for Miller not getting to grow up with Savannah.

I'm at a loss for what to say, except that  that beautiful boy still needs you to be strong for him.

 

BrideBuddies

Name or no name, a baby lost will not be forgotten.. ever.

I will feel the same every Nov 1.. the day we lost our first pregnancy.  It was a blighted ovum, so really no baby was there.  But it still hurts, just the same.

 

Peppernut

I am so sorry for your loss!

I love the name, and I love that she had parents who loved her so much while she was here! 

Piranha54

I am so sorry.  I can't even imagine your pain.  T&P!!

Temp174496125006552

That must be incredibly hard.  I'm sorry for your loss.

livvielo

Hugs to you. You are one strong momma, and I'm so sorry you lost your little Savannah.

NewMrs07

That's a beautiful name and I think losing a baby in utero is just as hard as losing her when she's outside. I'm very sorry for your loss.

JenniferTCU

I am so very sorry. I had no idea. Please call me if you need to talk.

fiazo

I remember this. I am so sorry you had to go through that. I think it might be getting harder because now you see how DS is growing & you wonder what she would have been like. Beautiful name.

iluvtom

Indy I am so sorry I clearly remember your loss and sending you big (((HUGS)))