Maybe a variation of PPD? idk..

realisticdreams

I wouldn't say that I am at all depressed, I'm adjusting to the challenges of working FT, taking care of a baby & not getting enough sleep.  But, I do have something else going on which I think is kind of part of PPD. 

Graphic images in my head playing out of horrible things happening to Peyton.  Not me causing them or hurting her but just what if this happened and what if that happened.  What if she's dead right now in her crib.  I met my FIL at sheetz last weekend to drop her off and head to work, I was getting a doughnut.  All of a sudden a vehicle plowing into his van in the intersection popped into my head and I had to get it out of there.   It even involved what would I do, how would I react, obviously i'd flip and probably puke while screaming hysterically.

So..does anyone know if this is a variation of PPD, or just me being over protective?  

jaime5121

Post partum anxiety.  Very common!  I would call your OB and let her know what is going on.  Talk therapy or meds can really help.  Of course, it is completely normal to worry ALL. THE. TIME!  You are a new mom! 

mrs.vanderwall

I have the same thing...diagnosed as Post partum anxiety.  I also have depression on top of it, but the anxiety is the worst.  I'm constantly thinking about her dying, me dying and not being around to raise her...etc.  I'm on meds and seeing a psychologist weekly.  It's helped a little, but I'm still not 100%.  Hopefully I just need more time on meds.  Give your dr. a call and let them know what's going on. 

dusk42

Jenny1980 has a blog about intrusive thoughts and PP OCD.

mcadams1

I'm a lurker- have anxiety issues myself and this whole "intrusive thoughts" thing? Never heard of it as a term but that happens to me all the time and was worse when DD was born. You hear about PPD but I've never heard of PPA. Just had to butt in and thank you ladies for pointing out something that's going to definitely help me get help in the future!