FEMME -- is that the bat signal I see?!?!

Jodi&Joe

Do you want some company Thursday?  I can have my MIL watch Joey and Cam and I can come visit.  Hold the baby, entertain Alex...whatev.  And you can sleep.

And no, you don't have to pick up your house for me!

Just say the word!

Jamaica_Bride

I can come too!!!

femmegem

You two are so sweet! We're hanging in there. Alex is in school again now that the holiday's over, so things are manageable. I'm not as confident about what will happen when DH goes abroad. Don't worry, if it gets too bad I will definitely let you know!!!

Jodi&Joe

When does he leave?

And I saw your post (obviously)....please try not to worry about ANYTHING right now.  You should be in survival mode....take care of yourself/anger once you are over the "I just had a baby last week" hump! 

And since I know you are like me, and we are SO all or nothing, I know WHY you are worried about it now.  But, as you know, NOW is not the time to be all or nothing.

If you are scaring yourself (ie. having violent thoughts, feel loss of control, etc), call your OB and get a script.  Worry about the talk therapy part of it later....get some meds to get over this hump.  Once you are sleeping more, THEN worry about the talk therapy party.  Again, SURVIVAL mode!

(((HUGS)))

And, lastly, I'll share my now fave story of when Cam was a newborn.  Actually, I think she was about 6 months old at this point....but Joe was harping on me nonstop about being on the computer....nonstop!  And I had had enough.  Cam would scream for 3+ hours every night before settling, she was up 2-4 times a night, I was WIPED!  At 4:30am, after being up for the 3rd time that night, after dealing with her screaming for 4 hours from 6-10pm before getting her to go down, I freaking grabbed my cars keys and left.  Told Joe I was DONE....he would have to deal with it....I was OUT! 

I was in my pajamas....and barefeet.  Drove around the block, decided against getting on the highway and slamming my truck in to a jersey barrier, realized "where the hell am I going to go right now at 4:30am, in my pajamas, with no shoes" and drove back home.  Still having a tantrum, went downstairs to the computer and started ripping it out of the wall...then broke down in a crying lump in Joe's arms...after hitting him in the chest a few times (not hard....totally in a "As the World Turns" dramatic fashion).

GOOD TIMES! 

LisaK2b

First off, congrats on your baby boy!!!  I know exactly where you're coming home and I wasn't prepared how hard it would be to have a newborn AND a toddler!!!  Just hang in there and it'll eventually get a lot easier in the long run (I'm talking about years from now when they can go off and play with each other...JK!). 

But seriously, get any outside help if you can when it comes to cleaning, cooking, someone to play and entertain Alex,...  After a few months, you'll have a routine down and be thinking about #3 in no time.  

femmegem

Thanks Lisa. And Jodi, you're right, now may not be the best time to start therapy. I threatened to move back home with my parents last night, so your story sounds familiar! I have to figure some things out when I'm thinking more rationally.