I am so depressed and on edge and so many feelings all at once. Today I snapped at my mom, my aunt, my husband, and even my 4 year old cousin. All within a few hours time. I felt extremely horrible afterwards. I'm about to lock myself in my house and not go anywhere for the rest of the week. My mom and my husband have been rock strong for me throughout all of this and they didn't deserve to be the blunt of my anger. My aunt however, is a b*tch and refused to look at my daughters picture because, and I quote, "That's disgusting. I don't know how you can carry around a dead babies picture." SERIOUSLY????? You are seriously going to talk about my precious baby girl like that? I could've punched her in her throat. Not even kidding. As for my little cousin, she stepped on my toe. Literally stepped on my toe. Of course I felt horrible for that one as well. Ahhh, I'm just ready to be happy again. But I feel like if I'm happy, I'm being ignorant towards our daughter. I just don't know anymore.