Putting her first, even when...

Sinafey · May 2010

I'm having a really hard time right now. A few days ago I found out that a dear friend was killed in a really terrible way... The day after I found out I had to return to work, which I was already concerned about dealing with.

Between the horrific news and work I'm having a really hard time summoning the patience to entertain DD. I know she needs me, and that I need to just suck it up and happily entertain her given the limited time available with her, but it's so hard. I can't smile and giggle and coo with her, I just want to cry. I'm scared because I don't know how long it will take me to get over this. I know I can't put myself first, she's my everything, but it's just hard right now.

This is the first time I've ever dealt with a really unexpected death. Anybody have any advice?

DeeandBrad · May 2010

My grandfather died in a horrible way when I was a senior in high school so I completely understand the grieving process you are going through. Give yourself time to deal with you sorrow. It took my months to final come to terms with his death and to stop having nightmares related to it. Just remember every time you look at your LO that life is such a miracle a precious miracle and you friend would want you to be happy and not remember how she died but how she lived. I am sorry you are going through this. Just be open talking to DH about what you are feeling and you might need to see your doctor if you continue feeling this way. I am sorry for your loss and hope you start to feel better.