UGH!!!

hellonwheels

I am going back to work today..first day back since my d&c on monday..and im nervous and scared...and dh is trying to support me through it all..but he doesnt know how I feel..i wish i could put him in my place...i wish there was a way to show him how everything is effecting me..i know he is hurting too..but he doesnt show his emotion like i do..i dont want to be the one that everyone talks about behind her back..i know there will be whispers and questions and i just dont want to deal with it...but eventually i have to..i just wish it didnt have to happen on a weekend where i have to be at work three days in row for 8 hours at a time..i might see if can get someone to stay for me so i can go home early...im just not prepared for this..i wish dh was home

Aubs0009

I'm sorry Hun. I hope today goes well for you. (( Hugs)) I'll be thinking about you today.

betizzle73

I'm so sorry! I hope your weekend goes better than expected.

hellonwheels

thanks all!! Im trying to be positive..i will def. let you know how my FIRST day back goes tonight when i get home...time to head to work..ugh...bye for now!!!

Jessicaanne_1@yahoo.com

Hang in there. I hope everything goes well for you. ((hugs))

CashewsMommy

Oh hun I'm so sorry! (((Hugs))) hopefully work will go quick and won't be so bad. We're all here for you though!

laurapowdrill

I felt the same way about my Dh too.  but someone posted this poem a while back and it really helped me to understand that men don't grieve the same as we do.  Maybe this will help you too.  sorry you are having a rough time..

A Father's Grief

It must be very difficult
To be a man in grief,
Since "men don't cry"
and "men are strong"
No tears can bring relief.

It must be very difficult
To stand up to the test,
And field the calls and visitors
So she can get some rest.

They always ask if she's all right
And what she's going through.
But seldom take his hand and ask,
"My friend, but how are you?"

He hears her crying in the night
And thinks his heart will break.
He dries her tears and comforts her,
But "stays strong" for her sake.

It must be very difficult
To start each day anew.
And try to be so very brave-
He lost his baby too.

-unknown

jerriesgirl

I understand where you are coming from.  I hope your weekend goes well though!  (((hugs)))

hellonwheels

update: work went amazingly well..i only had two people who gave me the IM SO SORRY blah blah blah thing...but they are my friends...so i understand where they were coming from...and then my co-workers surprised me with their own stories of m/c...it made me feel a lot better to know that others had dealt with it recently...one's mc was one year from tomorrow...i cant imagine how it will feel in dec when our due date comes around..or when our ONE year since we lost baby comes...ugh...but my day went amazingly smooth..i feel a lot stronger after making it through a day of work..like i can start going back to my "NORMAL" self...

p.s. I LOVE THAT POEM! it is sooo true...and it makes me realize how much he is going through too...i havent seen him get to grieve yet..maybe ill discuss how HE is feeling tonight..bet it'll knock him on his butt if i ask him how he is coping/feeling/dealing with this..instead of the other way around....u rock my socks!!!