I'm not sure I belong posting this...

KellyD01

I'm so scared right now! I haven't had my babies yet, and had no issues when I had DS... but the thought of dealing with twin infants and my 2 year old has me scared to death I'm going to develop PPD. I'm completely terriffied I won't be getting any sleep, I'm already sleep deprived now and more often than not am short tempered with everyone EXCEPT my son. I'm afraid the complete sleep depravation is going to extend to even him. I'm terrified I won't bond w/ my girls because I already feel a bit of resentment that they are going to take away from my time w/ DS. This pregnancy was 100% wanted, planned for and worked for... but I'm trying to figure out what I was thinking!

I don't know what I'm looking for by posting this, I just know I needed to get it out and hope that actually typing it will help me work through it. Thanks to whoever listened!

Gina418

I think I would be overwhelmed at the thought of twins at this point too, but you know what I've found to be true lately - my anticipation is always worse than the actual event, ykwim? Yes it seems scary and overwhelming now, but you may turn into a fabulous multi-tasker with no issues taking care of 2 newborns and a toddler. And if you don't, that's ok too.

Reach out to friends and family - I'm sure you'll find a lot of people willing to help you in those first few weeks as you adjust to your new life. 

GL!

Kroschka

I feel the exact same way!  This pregnancy was planned and worked for.  Recently I also started resententing and not wanting this new baby because of the time it is going to take away from my daughter and how it is going to change our relationship.  I did have bad PPD after my daughter was born (and have sufffered a few bouts of depression in my life) and the docs have been keeping an eye on me.  We just uped my meds today because of it.  If I had a dollar for everytime I asked what the heck hubby and I were thinking when we got pregnant again, I'd be rich!!