I'll be starting Lupron this week and I'm just filled with dread about this upcoming cycle. I think I'm a little depressed about it, I've had a tough road with 3 fresh and 2 frozen cycles, 3 early losses and a couple of BFN's. Each failed cycle has broken my heart a little more. I know logically I've got just as good of a shot this time as any other, but all I can foresee is some new kind of failure. I guess I'm just scared. :-(
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Re: Vent about my upcoming IVF
It is ok to be scared and it is ok to have these feelings. You have been to hell with all of your treatment and cycles so everything is totally justifiable!
Let us be excited for you while you sort through these feelings. I'm pretty sure you will get excited/ eager to progress as thing start moving quicker.
I'll be thinking about you! (((HUGS)))
I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. IMO, you have every right to feel that way..you've been through so much.
I really, really, really hope this is your cycle. I'll be positive for you
TI, IUIs, IVF = c/ps and BFNs
This exactly! We will be thinking of you!
5 REs + 3 surgical hysteroscopies for septum/lap + 3 failed IUIs
IVF w/ICSI/AH & acu = BFP!, unexplained spontaneous m/c @ 8w2d (our little girl),
FET w/acu = BFP!, B/G twins!, lost MP @19w, dx w/funneling cervix @20w,
twins nearly lost to IC @21w, saved by rescue cerclage, 17P & 16w of bedrest
Our twins born @36w4d via CS when A came foot first
Thankful for every day
(((bighugs)))
I am thinking about you and will be thinking tons of good thoughts for your cycle.
TTC since August 2008
IVF#1: BFFN; IVF#2: BFN; FET with new RE: BFN
IVF#3: ER 1/15; ET 1/20; Beta#1 1/29: 339!
Twins girls born via c/s at 37w/3d!!
"Let it go, this too shall pass."
I think after all you've been through and the roller coaster hell of betaville you had to live in it is perfectly understandable for you to be scared shitless.
I've been here for every cycle and will continue to support you in any way I can cutie. For now, we'll be excited and hopeful and you do what you need to to protect yourself. I think as you get closer you'll feel a little more excited about starting.
I am praying that this cycle is finally your sticky baby. Those kitties need a little one or two to play with.
((HUGS)) & PPV!
Worrying does not empty tomorrow of its troubles, It empties today of its strength. ~Corrie ten Boom
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)
It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
I know that there is a huge part of me that is scared shitless for my upcoming IVF and it's only my second IVF. Multiple m/c don't help either.
I think it's okay to be scared. I try my best to be hopeful, but a lot of times that's easier said than done.
I am sending you tons of PPV for this cycle. Good luck hon
Unexplained Infertility
After two Clomid cycles, three injectable IUI cycles, two IVFs, two miscarriages, and one lap surgery, IVF #2 has brought us our little boy!
TTC #2
After months of being postponed or cancelled, FET #1.3 (Natural FET) brought us twin girls!
you've been through so much. you have every right to those feelings.
i think once you start stimming, things will change for you.
You can always lean on us.
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I hear ya Monty. I have not been through all you have but i also feel very trepidatous about this cycle. its like I can't let myself get excited or the BFN will hurt all the more.
On the other hand I see people who have struggled & have gotten their sticky BFP's & it gives me hope that it can happen for us too.
Good Luck & ((HUGS))
Well said! Sending you good luck!!
You definitely have a lot of people pulling for you, myself included!
IVF #1-4=BFN IVF #5=BFP! U/S on 5/3 revealed TWINS!
IVF#1 Oct 2009 (CCRM) - BFN
IVF#2 March 2010 - Poor response/cancelled
DE IVF#1 Aug 2010 - BFN
DE IVF#2 Dec 2010 - Transferred 1, 2 frozen - BFP!
TTC#2 FET Jan 2013 - Transferred 1 - BFP!
I think your feelings are totally normal, but I wish you didn't have them
I hate that this is what multiple IVF's do to us... no hope in sight. I feel the same way right now, and it makes me sick to my stomach to think about.
I hope this is IT for you... best of luck!
Me - DX Hashimoto's Disease, Hypothyroid, Rheumatoid Arthritis
DH - DX Azoospermia - Sertoli Cell Syndrome
DS-IUI #1-4 BFN IVF #1 - BFP! It's a boy!!!
IVF#1: start stims 1/26; ER 2/8; ET 2/13= BFN; FET#1: May 2010= m/c *NEW CLINIC Jan 2011* IVF#2: start stims 1/12; ER 1/22; ET 1/27= BFN; IVF#3: TBD
~SAIFW/PAIFW~
This...and good luck sweetie!!