Vent about my upcoming IVF

MontyMrs

I'll be starting Lupron this week and I'm just filled with dread about this upcoming cycle. I think I'm a little depressed about it, I've had a tough road with 3 fresh and 2 frozen cycles, 3 early losses and a couple of BFN's. Each failed cycle has broken my heart a little more. I know logically I've got just as good of a shot this time as any other, but all I can foresee is some new kind of failure. I guess I'm just scared. :-(

LCB34

It is ok to be scared and it is ok to have these feelings.  You have been to hell with all of your treatment and cycles so everything is totally justifiable!

Let us be excited for you while you sort through these feelings.  I'm pretty sure you will get excited/ eager to progress as thing start moving quicker.

I'll be thinking about you!  (((HUGS)))

madelyn07

I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. IMO, you have every right to feel that way..you've been through so much.

I really, really, really hope this is your cycle. I'll be positive for you

 

mrslovebug

LCB34:

It is ok to be scared and it is ok to have these feelings.  You have been to hell with all of your treatment and cycles so everything is totally justifiable!

Let us be excited for you while you sort through these feelings.  I'm pretty sure you will get excited/ eager to progress as thing start moving quicker.

I'll be thinking about you!  (((HUGS)))

This exactly!  We will be thinking of you!

kthappy76

Oh, I so hope that this cycle is the one for you  It's definitely your turn. (((hugs)))

MrsP71506

(((bighugs)))

I am thinking about you and will be thinking tons of good thoughts for your cycle.  

Amie8301

You have every right to feel the way you do. You've been through more dissapointment than I can imagine. I really hope this is it for you!

njdcgirl

((HUGS)).  The fear is understandable - you've been through more than anyone should have to.  Lots of positive energy is coming your way throughout this cycle, Monty, and I'm predicting a BFP at the end!!  Hang in there.

theworms

I think after all you've been through and the roller coaster hell of betaville you had to live in it is perfectly understandable for you to be scared shitless. 

I've been here for every cycle and will continue to support you in any way I can cutie.  For now, we'll be excited and hopeful and you do what you need to to protect yourself.  I think as you get closer you'll feel a little more excited about starting. 

I am praying that this cycle is finally your sticky baby.  Those kitties need a little one or two to play with.

((HUGS)) & PPV!

koyn

It is so Ok to be scared. I know it can be depressing to feel this way but just one step at the time may help you get through it.  I am thinking of you.  I hope this is the one for you. 

caityr

(((hugs))) Monty. I have been there. What always helped me was to have a backup, and for me it was DE. I made peace with it and had this last cycle not worked I knew that was prob my next step. Even if that is not on your mind, I sometimes think it helps to line up your plan. That and schedule lots of things in t he 2ww to keep your mind off of everything. We are so rooting for you but I can def relate to the feelings. IVF is scary s%$#, and not the routine part but this emotional part.

Kiki11

I know exactly what you mean.  With each failure and each loss, my heart cracked more and more.  I honestly don't know how I managed to get through each day.  Just know that I'm here rooting for you and really hoping that this is finally your lucky cycle. 

greekwife05

I don't have any advice as I've not be down that road yet but I wanted to offer you (((HUGE HUGS))) and tell you good luck on this up coming cycle, I hope this is the one you get your precious baby from.

mrshoppy_1231

I think it's totally normal to be scared and feeling down about it. You have been through a lot! Just wanted to let you know that I'm pulling for you!

Dragonfly1226

I know that there is a huge part of me that is scared shitless for my upcoming IVF and it's only my second IVF. Multiple m/c don't help either.

I think it's okay to be scared. I try my best to be hopeful, but a lot of times that's easier said than done.

I am sending you tons of PPV for this cycle. Good luck hon  

GenRN45

you've been through so much. you have every right to those feelings.

i think once you start stimming, things will change for you.

You can always lean on us.

sheila1108

I hear ya Monty. I have not been through all you have but i also feel very trepidatous about this cycle. its like I can't let myself get excited or the BFN will hurt all the more.

On the other hand I see people who have struggled & have gotten their sticky BFP's & it gives me hope that it can happen for us too.

Good Luck & ((HUGS))

jani7

LCB34:

It is ok to be scared and it is ok to have these feelings.  You have been to hell with all of your treatment and cycles so everything is totally justifiable!

Let us be excited for you while you sort through these feelings.  I'm pretty sure you will get excited/ eager to progress as thing start moving quicker.

I'll be thinking about you!  (((HUGS)))

Well said!    Sending you good luck!!

MrsAMR

It's really scary. It's SO hard to be positive. You just have to think... This is my time. My sticky baby will be now. The let down is going to be horrible if you're thinking positively or negatively, so do your best to be positive.

You definitely have a lot of people pulling for you, myself included!

roselln2

It is so hard to get excited after so much pain and frustration, but we are here for you cheering you on. Good luck, sweetie! I hope that this is it for you!

BRSaugust20

After all you've been through so far, I think it is totally normal to feel this way.  Just remember that you aren't ready to give up and neither was your RE so all you can do is take it one day at time.

JM1977

You have been through so much, and I am so sorry for your pain and your losses.  We are all here to support you.  Huge hugs!!

svp1537

I think your feelings are totally normal, but I wish you didn't have them I hate that this is what multiple IVF's do to us... no hope in sight. I feel the same way right now, and it makes me sick to my stomach to think about.

I hope this is IT for you... best of luck!

juliannat

We'll be excited for you Monty - just like you are for all of us. As you know I too woke up with dread this morning feeling that my lining would suck and they'd put me on the first plane back home. I guess all the failures we've had just make us expect the worst, right? So I'll be excited for you just like you're excited for me!

Nesting.Away

It's ok, sweetie. It is ok to not be excited and to be scared. We are all here pulling for you and that is something you can rely on. Lots of ((hugs)), girly!

nikinikinine

Monty all of this is so valid and it's okay to feel this way. I hope that by the time you get to stims you are a little more energized and hopeful. Big ((((HUGS))))

Yellow_Daisy

I'll be sending you lots of positive vibes and keep you in my thoughts! 

PoeticJustice

((HUGS)) Monty! Praying this is it for you!

ichoosehope

LCB34:

It is ok to be scared and it is ok to have these feelings.  You have been to hell with all of your treatment and cycles so everything is totally justifiable!

Let us be excited for you while you sort through these feelings.  I'm pretty sure you will get excited/ eager to progress as thing start moving quicker.

I'll be thinking about you!  (((HUGS)))

This...and good luck sweetie!!

newsbaby

I can't fault you for feeling this way because I feel the same. Its a terrible way to be but I am trying my hardest to think positive. I keep telling myself I don't have a chance at having a baby unless I try...same for you. We are here for you and I pray that this is your time!

m&m2006

monty, i think that what you are feeling is totally normal.  this is scary road that you are on.  i am feeling really good about this cycle.  i'm sending all of my good vibes your way.  i hope this is it for you...you deserve to move over to SAIF!