I'm awful.

joseysbride

So, today I have a hair appointment and another appointment after lunch, so I had been planning for a week now to take the afternoon off for myself.  Go to my appointments, run a couple errands, take a nap, and just pick the kids up from daycare at the normal time.  I was really looking forward to it considering I haven't had more than 3 hours of uninterupted sleep in two weeks and I have been on my own with the kids most of the time due to dh's work schedule.  He'll be home Friday and Saturday and then he has to work nights again from Sunday to next Saturday.  I really just need and want a break.

Well, Cohen has been having a hard time sleeping for the last few days, and after last night I am positive that his ear infection hasn't cleared up.  He is happy as can be when he is up and awake, but if you try to put him to sleep he screams his head off and can only sleep for short stretches at a time before he's screaming again.  Totally not like him.

I know I should get him in to the doctor asap, and this afternoon would be the perfect time since I am already taking off.  BUT I want to just wait until the after hours clinic opens tonight because I don't want to give up my afternoon to myself. 

And of course now I'm just feeling guilty that I'd even consider that.  Feeling guilty that I had to even take him to daycare this morning.  Ugh.  I very rarely have mommy guilt, but today I'm feeling it.

DandR

Here is my "its all fine" answer.....

For my kids, I swear they had symptoms, I'd take them RIGHT away and there would be NOTHING....ears are clear!  Then I'd take them back the next day and BAM, ear infection.....so I think you are smart waiting a few extra hours for the infection to 'brew' so the doctor can see it better!!!!  I learned to wait a day before taking my kids.

lol

 

Mrs.Tony

I don't think you are awful. You can still get him in tonight and what's a few hours going to do in terms of making a difference? At least you can get him in later. I say take the time for yourself (which seems rare for you) and do what you had planned.

joseysbride

Thanks for justifying it for me D&R!   The most annoying thing in the world is when you swear your kid is sick and you take them in, and nothing (according to the doctor).

I think more than anything, I feel bad that I am having someone else take care of him while he's not feeling well.  Normally, I love when my kids are sick so I have an excuse to stay home with them.

npeacock

I'm with pp on this one. You are not awful. You said he seems fine while awake. He will have fun at daycare, and then you can get him in tonight to see if there is in fact an infection.

I hate mommy guilt. Do what you need to do this afternoon. You will be a better mom for it all around.

xbrooklyngrl

I am 100% the same way as you and I see nothing wrong with what you are doing. You need a break and I'm sure he's ok. Don't feel bad!

Jodi&Joe

I will personally come kickyourass if you change your afternoon plans!  You need some YOU time....take it.  Enjoy it.  It will give you the opportunity to refocus and feel refreshed....which is best for all involved anyway.

 

joseysbride

For fear of getting my asskicked by Jodi, I am going to take my afternoon off.  I was really looking forward to it, and I am not going to have any down time for the next two weeks, so it will be worth it.

Thanks, girls!

mamarazzi

Poppycock!  (I always wanted to say that)

You are not terrible!  You need a break and will be a much better mom to your kids if you're well-rested and recharged.  Take your afternoon off and enjoy the heck out of it!

j-w

I'm with the others...take the afternoon off and enjoy it!  A couple of hours on the EI isn't going to make a bit of difference!