Help. I'm panicking

KiKiGee

So, I posted yesterday that I did my first round of injections and it went great.  I was so relieved and happy.

Well.... last night.... not so much.   I basically had a meltdown (tears and all) and significant anxiety.

I think part of it is timing - my husband and I work different hours so he has has to wake me up when he gets home to help (and for whatever odd reason I've actually been sleeping really well the last few nights which is a major rarity).  He's also not a "pro" at this and both nights we've had some "issues"  the first he double stuck me, but it honestly didn't really hurt that much.  Last night, he didn't even warn me and it hurt like CRAZY. 

So now, I just don't think I can do this.  Honestly.  The thought of doing this everynight is making me panic.  Like, really..... panic.   Especailly knowing I'm going to have to add a third shot w/a larger needle and then the dreaded PIO.

The nurse at my REs says she'll give me the shots herself but when I think about it I get anxious and teary.  I don't know what to do.   I'm shocked by the depth of my fear and anxiety.   I had no idea I would react this way.  I don't normally have needle issues.  I normally don't have anxiety issues, either.

I've been dodging dealing with this all day because I literally feel sick to my stomach. I don't think I can do this. 

Any good advice?

I'm sorry I'm a wuss and a flip-flopper.

sheila1108

You are not a wuss! IVF is very overwhekming & i find if I take it one shot at a time, one day at a time its much easier to handle. Please be patient with yourself-you can do this!

CJ71903

When I was getting my injections, I'd turn on some music that pumped me up and try to just tune into that.  Also, I thought to myself that with each shot, we were making more progress.  Good luck!  It will be over before you know it - honestly, it goes so fast.

newsbaby

Just think of the millions of us that have done this over and over again. I can see where you are coming from...I feel like injecting myself with a needle is so not normal. But I learned to get over it because I want a baby so badly. 

Definitely stop thinking about how many needles you have to do in the future. Think about one day at a time. You can do this! It does not hurt at all. And even if it does, it is only for seconds. Breathe....look up some more pointers and examples of injecting online. Good luck!

nikinikinine

Everyone (even seasoned vets) has meltdowns during the injections for IVF. It's a mentally taxing process. Try to be kind to yourself and remember nothing great comes without sacrifice. Good luck hon.

hopefulmommy

I'm sorry you're having a hard time. Just slow down and breathe. You've come this far and each shot gets you closer to a baby! Did you ice?? I swear, if you ice for 5 or so min. you won't even feel the needle. GL!

mbjmaybebaby

I'm not sure if this is an option but I did all my own subcu shots myself.  DH was there with me but it gave me a sense of calm and control to do them myself.  He does my PIO now but I can do them if I need to.

Hang in there, it is scary and intimidating but you will get the hang of it and it will all be worth it in the end.  Meltdowns are totally normal.

((HUGS))

roselln2

Remember, you are a super strong woman. You can do this. These shots are NOTHING! They are simply a means to an end. Now, say this to yourself and breathe. You can do this!

Susan&Courtney

I just wanted to say that you aren't alone.  I only had to do a trigger shot this past cycle and that night I almost had a panic attack about the shot.  I really think it was less about the shot for me and more about the anxiety and overwhelming emotions of the whole process.  I'm so sorry that you are going through this but I know that you can do it!

PrincessJesci

A very large glass of wine about 30 mins before the shot should do you just fine. Or maybe half a valium or something?

elephantsky

First of all, you are NOT a wuss for feeling anxiety over shooting yourself up with hormones all day everyday! That is really freaking scary. There is a reason why people hope and pray they don't have to go through IVF... it sucks to have to put your body through that. Having never done it myself, I don't think I can offer you any great advice. I just want you to know how much I respect your strength to take this on.  You CAN do this. Baby steps... to get your baby!

KiKiGee

Thank you all SO much.

I just gave myself the sub-cu follistim and I made it!   I just have to wait for the hubs to get home for the menopur b/c it's IM, and I just don't know how to even attempt that.

Thank you thank you thank you for the support.   You are all amazing.  AMAZING.

I was feeling doubly bad because I felt stupid for being so nervous.  Helps so much to know I'm not the only one.

DrVWife

roselln2:

Remember, you are a super strong woman. You can do this. These shots are NOTHING! They are simply a means to an end. Now, say this to yourself and breathe. You can do this!

 

This exactly!  Hugs to you!  I am glad you were able to do your subQ...it was rough on me too but when I was doing it, it was easier.  And my DH is a dentist and gives injections every day!