Success after IF

i haven't pumped since monday

and i actually turned in my rented pump to the hospital today. 

i feel pretty good physically, but so unbelievably guilty.  i have enough BM frozen to last another month or 2.  i just feel like they're preemies; i should have kept pumping.  i felt so bad today i seriously considered trying to re-lactate.

but between working full-time and law school 3 nights a week, pumping didn't leave much time with the babies.

did anyone else feel this way?  is this normal or am i totally crazy?

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Re: i haven't pumped since monday

  • I BF'd for like 2 minutes on each side this morning for the first time since Saturday (and only because my boobs were killing me)....so I am feeling similarly....but I have to admit that I am also happy that I can eat whatever I want now (G has a milk allergy so I had to watch my dairy).  I'm glad I stuck with it as long as I did but yes, I have some sadness too.  I didn't expect AT ALL to be as attached to it as I became.

    But, there are going to be lots of firsts, lasts, and phases for the next 18+ years so I'm just trying to keep that in mind and actually see it as positive progression instead of missing it.

    Hang in there!!

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  • I think you are normal! Go you that you have that much milk! My supply sucks and I haven't been able to store anything. I think you need to make the best decision for you and your family! It sounds like you have a lot on your plate and taking off pumping is a good idea. Don't feel crazy! Pumping takes a lot of time away from babies it's hard to hold and pump! Stand by your decision :)
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  • Do not feel guilty!!! You did a great job and you are BUSY!!!
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  • I went through those guilty phases as I almost quit a few times.  But once I decided to quit for good, I had no guilt.  There just wasn't time in the day, and if I did find time, one or both babies would scream the minute I got hooked up.  I feel okay with my decision, but couldn't say that a few weeks ago.

    You did amazing.  Seriously.  I only lasted 7 weeks.  Don't feel guilty!  It's so hard with twins!


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  • I have not pumped for 48 hours either.  I've been EPing since July so it was a LONG time coming.

    I know how you feel about the guilt.   Even though we have more than enough frozen milk to get her past her 1yr birthday, I feel guilty because she won't be getting "fresh" milk anymore.

    You'd think the freedom would outweigh the guilt, but it's not that easy.  

    If you're crazy then I'm crazy too!  :)  
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  • imagePsychedForBaby:
    I have not pumped for 48 hours either.  I've been EPing since July so it was a LONG time coming.

    I know how you feel about the guilt.   Even though we have more than enough frozen milk to get her past her 1yr birthday, I feel guilty because she won't be getting "fresh" milk anymore.

    You'd think the freedom would outweigh the guilt, but it's not that easy.  

    If you're crazy then I'm crazy too!  :)  

    i guess we're both crazy.  your daughter is beautiful, BTW.  :)

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  • thanks, ladies, for the support.  i feel better already.  :)
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