The fluid surrounding my baby was low and I was induced at 37w4d. Overall, the baby
was measuring in the 23rd percentile, which is okay. The abdomen by itself, however, was measuring in the 2nd
percentile. (All organs looked fine, the abdomen just wasn?t fattening
up.) This meant that the baby?s energy was going toward head growth.
These disproportionate growth measurements along with the low fluid,
signaled that the placenta was breaking down. She thought it would be
better to get the baby out, where it could get its nutrients from me
vs. the placenta, while it has the strength to go through a delivery.
The longer we wait, the increased risk of stillbirth.
We checked in at 7:30 p.m. and filled
out paperwork. At 9:30 p.m., after hooking me up to monitors, the nurse
inserted the Cervadil, a prostaglandin used to ripen the cervix. This
would stay in overnight, for 12 hours, making my cervix ?more
favorable? for labor. And they said we should sleep.
What they
didn?t count on was how my body reacted to the Cervadil: shakes,
diarrhea, a fever, and contractions ? oh, the contractions. They
weren?t bad, but were right on top of each other so I had no rest. And
I had to stay still in bed, so as not to move the monitors so they
picked up my lower heartbeat instead of the baby?s. I hated being in
that bed. I cried and told DH I didn?t think I could do this
drug-free. He spooned me and rubbed my head and we tried ? and failed ?
to sleep.
The next morning my doctor came in to assess the
situation. I had progressed to 3.5 cm and 75% effacement. We decided to
remove the Cervadil and wait a few hours to see if labor would continue
on its own. In the meantime, my new nurse let me take the monitors off
for a bit and take a bath. And when the monitors went back on, she gave
me the okay to move around, use the birthing ball, etc., saying we?d
just fix the monitors if we had to. I was so grateful to be out of bed,
able to deal with contractions how my body saw fit.
11:30 a.m.
rolled around and I had made no progress. Time for Pitocin. They
started me off at 2 miliunits/minute and would increase by 2 every half
hour. We made it up to 8, when contractions were barely a minute apart,
and they lowered it to 7.
By
this time, I was so exhausted that I was able to fall asleep for a
minute or two at a time in between contractions. Since I was being
monitored, DH said there were times that I actually slept through two or three contractions.
At
5:30 p.m. I felt a ?pop.? I thought it was a strong kick until I felt
the fluid spurt out. My water broke on its own, and
I was instantly in more pain. My doctor checked me again. Only 5.5 cm
and 90% effaced.
I thought I was going to die. I had been
laboring for so long and was barely halfway to full dilation. On top of
that, pain had increased tenfold. I sobbed to DH and wailed, ?I
can?t do this?I need medication?I can?t do this.?
Thankfully,
every time I said this, no one really responded. Either another
contraction came on and DH was forcing me to breathe with him, or
the nurse was showing him pressure points for my knees and back, or she
was having me move into different squatting positions to help move the
baby down and encourage progress.
Finally my doctor suggested a
small amount of pain reliever in my IV. She said it wouldn?t do much
but take the edge off to help me focus. I went for it. And I didn?t
notice a damn difference. Neither did DH. But my doctor and nurse
thought I was more focused.
I stopped watching the clock after
that. I could hardly focus enough to breathe through contractions. At
some point I decided I needed to push a little. I couldn?t just
?breathe through them? anymore. The problem was I was still only like
8.5-9 cm dilated.
But I pushed a little anyway. My doctor?s
shift had ended 20 minutes prior and she headed home, and now they were
calling her to come back. As I lay there, wanting this baby out, the
staff was getting things ready ? rolling in a big table with various
instruments and I don?t even know what else, but they were busy.
My
doctor showed up and had me alter positions a little. I was now onto my
third nurse, who had DH hold my left leg while she supported my
right. My doctor didn?t give me much direction when it came to pushing.
She let me do what I needed to do.
Never in my life have I
exerted so much force that I grunted, groaned, and screamed, even, to
counter balance my efforts that weren?t quite showing results yet. I
didn?t realize how many muscles it requires to push out a baby until
the next day, when my entire body ached. Despite how I would flop back
in exhaustion between contractions, pushing actually felt good. I felt
like I was doing something productive and this ordeal was almost over.
I always thought that pushing a baby?s head out of an orifice normally
10 times smaller would be the painful part of labor, but contractions
are by far the worst. After about an hour of pushing, my doctor
massaging and numbing me up, at 8:25 p.m., our baby slipped out and
into the world.
?One, two,? my doctor and the nurse counted in
sync as she unwrapped the cord from around its neck. She spread the
little legs and asked, ?What is it, DH?? He turned to me, with
tears in his eyes, and barely above a whisper, said, ?It?s a boy.?
Within seconds he was on my bare chest, screaming and flailing around.
Even though I knew the air was a shock to his skin and he probably
wouldn?t calm down for a while, I stroked him and kissed him and tried
to comfort him with words. I couldn?t care less about the discomfort in
my abdomen as my doctor applied pressure to encourage the placenta to
break free, nor the slight tug of the stitches, repairing my
second-degree tear. All that crossed my mind was, ?It?s all over,? and
?I have a son.? I?d glance over at DH and he just huddled by the
two of us, crying.
I had to hand him over for the usual tests
and DH followed him. My boy weighed in at 6 lbs., 10
oz., a full pound heavier than they suspected at the ultrasound the
morning before, and measured 19 inches long. Although he is a skinny
baby, he is perfectly healthy and completely adorable (ask anyone ?
it?s not just us!).
While the nurse helped me clean up, she
asked how I felt about going natural now that it was over. I thought
about it for a minute. At first, I said I would definitely consider
drugs if I get myself in this predicament again. However, if I had had
an epidural, and was confined to the bed, I?m 100% sure that labor
would not have progressed as quickly and I think 23 hours of
contractions is long enough, thankyouverymuch.
Although it was
not at all what I imagined, I was very pleased with my labor and
delivery experience, and that is solely because DH was an awesome
coach and I felt like my doctor and nurses were on my team. Besides, we
met our ultimate goal: getting the baby out safe and sound.
Re: Mostly went natural, even with induction