How long til you accepted LO

MamaKajsa

I had to have a scheduled c-section and it went so quickly that it was a shock that I had a baby in 10 minutes rather than hours of pushing. It was very hard for me to connect with DD at first, I couldnt even call her by her name. This went one for about a month. Did anyone else feel like that?

sapphire angel

Yes, I did the same. I kept asking for her in the operating room and recovery room but once I was coherent, I didn't want to hold her. Then we had so much trouble breast feeding and I ended up hating her presence and frustrated that nothing ever seemed alright. DD was maybe a 5 weeks before it got better. It helped a lot that we changed formulas at that time and she was like a different baby and I had already started counseling. She also started looking around for me at about 5 weeks so that helped too. Before that happened I had to force myself to cuddle with her and talk to her and hold her. 

Smudges*Mom

It took me a month or so to look forward to seeing my DS in the morning.  The mornings where I woke-up crying were the worst.  Ugh.  I knew I was turning a corner when I was excited to get LO up.

For a while, I really wondered what I had done to myself and this innocent little boy I had brought into this world.  I didn't feel bonded to him, I cared about him but I was so conflicted.  (Fortunately, my parents were taking care of us, so LO was in great hands.)

I hope that things get better for you.