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I think that SO believes I'm faking it

sapphire angelsapphire angel member
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It's just little things he's said and asked that imply I'm not being truthful about the depression. I hid most of it from him for so long, that when I final lost control of my emotions they all came exploding out. SO maybe I should just make him sit down and talk with me for an hour every day, and I tell him every little thing I feel. Or maybe I could journal and let him read it. That may be easier for me to do. THe Zoloft hasn't started working yet but it's only been about a week and a half and 50 mg dose. Today, we started doubling that.

I may have said some things I regret when my emotions were out of control but they were honest at the time, like resenting DD's presence. My relationship with DD has gotten slightly better but she's getting to be more active now and a lot more responsive to me. I can see that to DD I already mean so much to her. She looks around for me and gets so cuddly when she's sleepy. So no, I don't really resent her now and after talking to the therapist we agreed it wasn't so much resentment as it was frustration at our situation. 

It really hurts that he doesn't believe that I am hurting inside. I really want him to be more supportive but he just kind of shrugs it off or says something to the effect of 'suck it up and get on with it'. I don't know what to do to make him realize how much I need his support now.  Any suggestions?

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Re: I think that SO believes I'm faking it

  • *speedracer**speedracer* member
    i'd make an appointment with your OB (or whoever gave you the zoloft) and have them explain PPD to your SO. 
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  • sapphire angelsapphire angel member
    He was there at the appointment when I got the meds from the OB. Maybe he thinks they should have worked by now? Its only been a week and already the OB has increased the dose because I should have noticed something by now he said. Maybe not 100% better but something.  
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  • *speedracer**speedracer* member
    hmm i've always been told it can take up to 2 weeks for it to kick in. 
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  • exhausted_brideexhausted_bride

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    hmm i've always been told it can take up to 2 weeks for it to kick in. 

    and optimal results in 4-6 weeks.

    I'm so sorry you are going through this. I honestly couldn't imagine my H not believing me at a time like that. All I can say is PM if you ever want to talk. But yeah, he needs a big reality check. I don't think I could have ever imagined the hell that PPD/PPA is until you actually experience it. It was honestly the darkest time of my life.

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  • complex14complex14 member

    WOW-this exact same thing happened to me with my exhusband 7 years ago. He and his entire family thought i was "faking it". As if anxiety/panic/depression isnt enough, To not have any support or have everyone think ur crazy was a living nightmare.

    I feel for you. I'm here if you'd like to talk.

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