I admitted I need help and feel like a failure for a whole new reason...

chasbride07

Jack has been a terrible sleeper since birth.  I have probably gotten 4 straight hours once or twice in the past 5 1/2 months.  Last month was getting better when he was going down easy and then I was getting 3 hours at a time consistently but all went to crap this week.  Last night I realized I needed help.  I had thought about it since Christmas but always figured I could get through it.  After a lot of thought and reading on the topic, I am reasonably sure I have PPD.

Now that I have called my doctor and have Zoloft waiting for me at the pharmacy, I feel like a failure because I have to take something to do what in my mind should just be natural.  

And I'm afraid that once I start it won't stop and I don't want to rely on something forever.

I guess I'm just looking for support and reassurance that I am doing the right thing. 

Gina418

You're doing the right thing - you are not a failure! I think everyone who is prescribed a drug has your fear - but there are so many success stories of the total opposite happening (including me!).

jagsfan10

Absolutely you're doing the right thing! You have to take care of yourself - that in no way makes you a failure. I had a long road (well longer than I originally wanted) of being on prescribed drugs but it helped me get the help I needed to feel like myself again. And I'm not on them anymore. I don't think it's an irrational fear; just know that you can do it!

*speedracer*

you won't be on it forever.  ((hugs))

you are doing the right thing!

jaime5121

In order to be the best Mommy that you can be, you need to take care of you!  If that means you need to be on meds, than so be it - and I'm on drugs too!  It took me nearly two months to admit to myself, let alone anyone else, that something was wrong with me.  I suffered for too long.  I'm on Zoloft now, and it's amazing how much better I'm doing.  I'm not miserable anymore.  That not only makes me happier, it makes me a better mom and wife.  GL!!