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Yeah, so Ethan's going to be an only child.
BFN again today. I'm not going to test again and AF will most likely be here by later today or tomorrow, so the beta won't be necessary. There's a chance that later this spring we'll open the discussion for 1 IVF cycle, but not now and in my mind going forward from today, not ever.
Right now I'm okay. I am so ready to have my body back and begin to see a clear future that has at least some certainty to it. I am focusing on how nice it is going to be NOT to have to have an invasive cerclage, or the fear and constant worry of loss, and recovery from another c-section (which was awful for me personally). I'm excited to be able to put all of my energy into Ethan again, and starting to think about going back to work within the next year or so, rather than focusing on trying to give him a sibling. And there's a big part of me that is relieved not to have to think about another witching hour and colic and whether bf'ing will be easier.
So, I'm sure once all of this "look on the bright side!" fog wears off, I'll be a sobbing heap on the floor for a few days. But right now I'm okay.
Right now I'm okay. I am so ready to have my body back and begin to see a clear future that has at least some certainty to it. I am focusing on how nice it is going to be NOT to have to have an invasive cerclage, or the fear and constant worry of loss, and recovery from another c-section (which was awful for me personally). I'm excited to be able to put all of my energy into Ethan again, and starting to think about going back to work within the next year or so, rather than focusing on trying to give him a sibling. And there's a big part of me that is relieved not to have to think about another witching hour and colic and whether bf'ing will be easier.
So, I'm sure once all of this "look on the bright side!" fog wears off, I'll be a sobbing heap on the floor for a few days. But right now I'm okay.
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Re: Yeah, so Ethan's going to be an only child.
(((HUGS)))
And I hope that you are able to hang on to that positivity because I think it's an awesome way of looking at it.
(((hugs))) I'm glad you're feeling positive about it for now. We're here for you if you start to lose it.
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I'm so sorry SBDC. But it sounds like you have made peace with your decision (at least for now).
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I'm so sorry. I'm glad you are able to see the positives in this hard time. I hope that you are able to find peace with however your family works out.
((((hugs))))
I refuse to read anything else past this sentence....
"I'm not going to test again and AF will most likely be here by later today or tomorrow"
I'm not even going to entertain the thought of anything else until that b!tch rears her ugly head. With DS2 I got a BFN even though I was a day late.
(((((HUGS)))))
It sounds like you have a really good outlook on everything and I don't doubt that no one thinks any less of your descisions.
I'd be devastated but I'd do the same as you. I'd try to see as much good as I can and just enjoy my baby.
Despite what I WANT, I may have only one child, for different reasons but it is what it is. It would suck a$$ because that wasn't my plan but my baby will be spoiled and smothered! lol
ouch. I hate that you have to deal with this. but I am glad you are looking at it this way- If Ethan ends up an only child- he's going to love it! there are lots of benefits to that!
I can not blame you for being over it- how exhausted you must be. I hope you're going to start feeling better and better about things- put some energy into you.
im here for you.
HUGS!!!
Sobbing heap or positive outlook we will be here for you either way.
(((hugs)))
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Time to take a break and enjoy Ethan and you for a while. I don't think you should give up hope though. Just start enjoying life again and hopefully one day you'll get a lovely surprise!
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I am proud of you for seeing the positives-- even though that may just be a coping mechanism. Whatever works and helps you get through it. And, good for you also for keeping an open mind in case you do change your mind.
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Dammitall. I was hoping the flashlight did the trick - I'm really sorry. We may not all get along on here, but we DO stick up for each other, and if you need to vent/cry whatever, we're all here.
Give E some big hugs & hang in there.
No words...
(((((hugs)))) and ready to scoop you off the floor if you need it, hon.
I am so sorry. I came on before my meeting to specifically look for your update and this is not what I was hoping for
Hugs to you.