I just took an online quiz to see if I might have PPD, and I do have a lot of the symptoms.
Being a single mom and having a baby who is consistently up 5 times every night is exhausting though. Irritability, headaches, crying, feeling worthless and guilty....I feel like all of those would be normal for anyone who is dealing with this alone.
The only thing that I've been really freaked out about is my anxiety about the baby. I feel guilty when I want him to sleep more or when I'm feeling like I need a break from him, and even though I know it's irrational I feel like he's gonna die of SIDS because I'm thinking those thoughts...and that it would be my fault. Like me wanting him to sleep longer makes me a bad mom and because of that he's not gonna wake up one day.
Now that I'm writing it out I think it's likely that there really is something wrong with me, and that I do need help but I don't even have medical coverage anymore....therapy and medication are an expense I can't afford for myself.What would you do if you were in my place? What can I do?