Irrational Thoughts

Tootermi

Long story short, my DD was born at 35 weeks and spent 10 days in the NICU for premature lungs was home for 10 days and then readmitted to the NICU with RSV. I was reasonably upset during her first NICU visit and thrilled to have her home. Everything was going great. Since her readmission though, I'm feeling not like myself. I'm having very irrational thoughts regarding my DH. I feel as if he doesn't love me, doesn't want me and is looking for other women to have sex with. If he's not sitting with me, then I think he's doing something he shouldn't be, even if it's looking at inappropriate things on the internet. My H is a GREAT guy. He's been nothing but wonderful during everything that is going on and I know all these thoughts are completely irrational, but I can't stop myself from thinking them. I've talked to him about it and he tries to console me and I feel better after we talk, but then a few hours goes by, and I'm back to feeling like he hurt me. I emailed my OB and she gave me the number of a few therapists I can call if I'm not feeling differently in a few days. Do you think I should call? Have any of  you experienced anything like this? My DD is still hospitalized and we're here with her. I have no negative thoughts towards her at all. I just want her to get better. I'm just not sure what to do. Any advice is really appreciated.

*speedracer*

i think you should call.  i didn't have any irrational thoughts about my DH, they were more about myself and my son.  I totally understand, you know the truth through those thoughts but you still can't stop them.  I had obsessive thoughts too, and they kept me from sleeping and really functioning like my normal self.  Anti-anxiety medication helped me a lot with this.

((hugs))

franciscaz

A lot of NICU moms (I am one of them) are really hit with feelings like this.  Talk to your doctor and try to get some counseling.  It has helped me with my irrational thoughts and anxiety.