BAAAD NIGHT!!!!

brandyward

I'm doing all I can. I started at a counselor last Monday, can't wait til this Monday for another session. I'm on meds. The depression is getting worse.

I just want to cry and sleep all day, but I have sooo many obligations. DH tries to help. He thinks a day or two of relaxing and getting away from work will help. It doesn't. I could take three weeks away and it wouldn't help at this point. When I go back it's just as bad, like I never destressed.

DH went out tonight, first time, and he usually takes care of DS when I'm like this. He needed to go out. BUT, Lo has a bad rash and won't stop fussing. I just want to scream, but we're in these apartments with thin walls. People are going to call the cops if I keep hollering (not at LO, but just in frustration).

I just want to let LO cry right now, but I can't stand to listen to him. It seems like I can do nothing right. He won't go to sleep. I need to pump, clean, eat something (low blood sugar). I just want to cry.

I hope DH comes home soon. I don't want to call/text and ask him to come home, but I need help! 

*speedracer*

((hugs))

can you get a friend or maybe a babysitter type to come over and just hold the baby for you sometimes?