vent..sorta long.

mrs_allred

me and H had a huge fight yesterday over NOTHING! he was picking on me about an ex boyfriend which, yes, it peed me off. well later on i went outside to have a cigarette and he followed. as soon as he hit the door, he started b!tching at me. saying that i was ignoring him and all this sh!t. i wasnt. and that made me even more mad. well it got to the point to where neither one of us was talking to eachother. went to bed, without talking and this morning he got up for work, didnt wake me up (like usual) to take my temp or even say goodbye.

this morning i get on to check my myspace and he sent me a message saying that i was just gonna throw our ovualtion days out the window over an argument. and im thinking.."what the hell, you didnt even wake me up to take my temp!!" and he says that i dont want a baby like i did if i could just throw away the important day.

we had a talk the other night, this month in 9 days, is when our EDD was for our baby we lost to a ectopic pregnancy. and i told him i wasnt really feeling the whole "trying" thing this month. well to me he doesnt understand that, and got soooo mad at me for even saying that. so thats why he says i dont want it like i used to. he just makes me want to choke him out!!!!! seriously! i dont know what to think of all this or what to do. so with that being said, i guess im done venting for now.

thanks for listening.

Bubbly Bobble

I'm sorry, my husband and I get in fights for no reason too. I hope your day gets better (hugs)

mrs_allred

thanks sweetie. hopefully it will get better soon. we are talking now, through email.

Bubbly Bobble

No problem. I'm glad things are getting better. We usually start through text

mrs_allred

lol well we would but i dont have a cell, he does and thats how we are doing the email thing...lol

Bubbly Bobble

Well whatever works

XXXXX222

Awww. TTC just takes its toll sometimes. You guys will work it out! I'm taking a break from charting this cycle. It kind of makes me feel like I'm not doing all I can, but honestly it'll make next cycle easier.

mrs_allred

ha if i was to tell H that, he would flip!! saying that i dont want a baby and blah blah blah. hes really starting to get on my nerves with this. lol.

Bubbly Bobble

Last cycle i decided to slack on charting, since i couldnt bring myself to not do it at all. It drove me crazy, my charts dont make to much sence to begin with haha. bad charting + ocd = very crazy me

mrs_allred

lol bubbly, im not sure i could go without charting all together. its drives me nuts to miss days. and so far ive missed 2 in a row!! cuz yesterday H was off work, and since hes the one who wakes me up at 5am to temp, i didnt get woke up yesterday either cuz he slept in.

Bubbly Bobble

I wouldnt know what to do if dh didnt wake me up at 3:30 every morning to temp. I am dreading next month, i wont be temping for 3 days while camping.

mrs_allred

oh no! 3 days! i would go nuts!
well GL with that. lol.

Bubbly Bobble

Thanks