How do I make the leap?

mauceddie

I've been a WOHM for 2 of the last 4 years. I don't mind work but I don't love my job or anything. We made a mistake and ended up in a home that we can't afford comfortably on DH's income alone. So, I continue to work. Some days I'm happy to be a working mom, but most days I want to be home. My older dd starts kindergarten next year and it's making me sad how fast the time flies by. But I only work 4 days/week, am paid pretty well and have a super flexible schedule. So I worry I won't get this type of gig again. Plus all of my friends are working moms (by choice) so I feel like I won't fit in. 

Ugh. I wish I knew what to do.  

mauceddie

|Any advice?? Please I am desperate. My husband is so annoyed with me flip-flopping back and forth on this. 

cp760

Sounds like the situation I was in. I actually liked my job. I was able to work 4 days a week, flexible schedule, good pay, great benefits and I actually liked what I did... but I wanted to be home. I was SO worried that I'd never find a gig like this again. Esp since I was a graphic designer and once you're out of the biz for a few years, you're like a dinosaur. Technology and design trends move pretty quick and you have to keep up with them. I decided to start my own business from home on the side and once it started doing well enough to cover me financially, I decided to take the leap and leave. It was a very hard decision because of all the fears I had about not finding a job like this again. Then I realized that there was no point in worrying about the future and that it was more important to live in the moment. We're not guaranteed the future. I'll deal with that when the time comes. Not that you shouldn't keep the future in mind, but I was obsessing about the future and no amount of worrying was going to give me a crystal ball into what the future holds, so I figured it was more important to live in 'now' and be with my kids while they're young. Who knows, many years from now I might find a new passion and not even want to be a designer anymore. For now my home business is doing well and I'll probably just continue this one the kids are grown. If you can swing it financially (even by cutting back), then you should follow your heart. I wish you luck with your big decision.