Hey ladies

Ncaminiti

It's nice to see the bump does have a PPD board but I'll never get why it's a SUB board. I was actually wondering a few things (I'm going to talk with my OB on Monday). I was fine at my 6 week check up no issues no drepression nada. Yet with the last week and a half or so I've noticed mood changes. I don't wanna give LO up to anyone including DH but am complaining how I don't feel helped or can't get into a shower etc. Give DH mixed statements. With a few days of each other I told him to come get mr out of the shower to nurse LO and not give him a bottle. The next time he dis this I freaked about how I need a few minutes to myself so I can shower. He's never sure what he should do unless he ask me right then because I apparently change my mind at the drop of a hat. Also, I could careless about sex. That's putting it mildly I actually shut down and wanna cry anytime DH tries to suggest we sneak off for it. I did have issues with a repair that was extra senstive but that's pretty much under control I just have no concern for it; he gets me to give in once a week or so but my mind is else where and I get nothing from it. To top things off I returned to work last Monday. I was on the verge of tears leaving Monday and fought back or cried ever other day an then called out sick on Friday because I just couldn't go in anymore (plus j was only doing a 1/2 day since LO had his 2month appt). I had suffered from major depression when I was 18 but I looked at it as a huge situational thing, 5th anniversary of my grandmothers passing, 9/11 (I'm from NYC), and that I was 700 miles away with no support system in college and just was miserable there. Well that's my story i don't know but any input is appreciated.

TommysGirl56

Welcome to the board!  I am sorry to hear about what a rough time you are having.  I feel many of the things you feel.  I definitely know what you mean when you say you want time to yourself, and yet don't want to be away from the baby.  Especially now that you are back at work.  Going back to work is truly what pushed me over the edge into PPD (or at least that is when I really started to notice it).  So I can understand what you are feeling now. 

Hopefully you will go talk to your doctor about how things are going.  With your history of depression, I would trust your instincts.  If you feel things are not right, you should definitely see someone!  All the feelings won't instantly go away, but you can get started on a path towards feeling better.  I have up days and down days.  Today at work is a down day.

However, I have started medication, gotten some super doses of vitamins, started exercising regularly and gotten an appointment with a psychologist (for later this month).  I am starting to experience more up days than before.

Good luck to you.  Please keep us updated, and remember, everyone here will be supporting you!