Anxious when they are about to wake up

Wantastickybaby

I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next week, so hopefully that will help.  In the meantime, I find myself feeling really anxious when the girls are taking a nap.  I worry that they will wake up cranky (this happens a lot lately) or that something will take place that I won't know how to handle...like both of them crying at once.  Even though it's been almost four months and things have gone pretty well, I find myself almost dreading the times when they wake up from their naps.  We also had a miserable experience trying to get them to sleep in their cribs, so they are back in the living room in their bouncy seats - which means I am tiptoeing around the house whenever they are asleep.  It's hard to do anything other than play on the computer.  

They are so cute while they're eating and right afterwards when they're playing, but they can be tricky to get to sleep &/or if they wake up too soon.  I hate sitting here full of anxiety every few hours.

Did anyone else have similar feelings?  Did your mediation help?

Thank you. 

just_peachy

I remember feeling dread every time I felt him fuss in terms of ready to wake up...

almost like "Uh oh, here comes a day full of unknowns with an innocent little person who is depending on me - someone who is clueless on how to pacify him"

I just wanted him to sleep all the time so I could collect my feelings or emotions and not have to worry about caring for him at the same time. It's hard to amuse a newborn when you are crying uncontrollably.

My klonopin has alleviated a lot of my anxiety in addition to time and therapy and my hormones regulating.

I also suggest keeping an online private journal to write your feelings and thoughts down.  Getting them out of your head and onto something really does help!

Hang in there