anyone else torment themselves?

Pink22_83

Sunday is the day I was supposed to enter a new week of pregnancy, The last 2 weeks I find myself looking to see where in development my baby should be. And how I should be x weeks pregnant. Then I remind myself to get off the computer and go snuggle with my DH. Anyone else go see what could have been? It's like every day I feel a little bit better and yet part of me doesnt want to move on yet.

goillini823

I did this a lot the first few weeks after losing Gabriel. Sundays are my days seeing a ticker change also. Today i should have been 25 weeks. I can't help but think how big I should be, and how much I should be feeling him kick. I dont think about it all day like I used to though. With time it does get better.

amjra

Me. 

Since my twins died just 2 days short of "technical" viability - I torture myself by looking at the survival statistics of where I should be this week. 

Sad but true.

avanbeek

Every day i think about it, i pray that it will get better for you, i know it will. Sending you hugs!! 

Jessicamz

All the time!  I'm always thinking about how many weeks I would be, how my stomach would look, how I'd feel, how the baby would look on an u/s now...   It's hard, but it's get easier.  I'm sorry for your loss. 

Pink22_83

amjra:

Me. 

Since my twins died just 2 days short of "technical" viability - I torture myself by looking at the survival statistics of where I should be this week. 

Sad but true.

I am so sorry to hear about your twins. ((hugs))

Shahlala

after i lost DS1, i used to still get the baby development emails...like "your baby is 1 week old today!" it would literally RIP my heart out. i couldn't even open my email after awhile.

 

molisar

Shahlala:

after i lost DS1, i used to still get the baby development emails...like "your baby is 1 week old today!" it would literally RIP my heart out. i couldn't even open my email after awhile.

 

I still get the bump's "your belly at week X" e-mail.  It mostly makes me mad that my belly isn't anything and I'm not week X.  In fact I'm going to find out how to stop receiving those e-mails right now.

((HUGS)) to you.

ikissedthecook

I tend to go to pregnology.com and look to see where my ticker would be. I also lurk on First Tri just to see how everybody is progressing and mope how I should be doing the same. I know when I hit my "should have been 12 weeks" mark, its going to be hard for me. I hope to be PG again by the time I hit my third tri mark. I hope if I am it'll help ease the pain a bit.

butterfly843

Every friday I think about how far along I would be. I am hoping we are pregnant by the time my due date comes because that week will be so hard since it is also the same week as my 30th birthday.

darkskyy

ugh - yes!  I hate that I do it...

Looking at the pictures and reading about the growing limbs, lungs...

Why do we do this to ourselves??