but right now i just dont have the energy to get up with DD every night (my mom is here helping me with recovery). my incision from my c-section isnt healing right, and i feel like literal sh!t. i hurt, i am uncomfortable, nothing tastes good, i hate eating or drinking anything and i barely do eat (ate my first real "meal", soup, today.) i am sad about my birth experience and my recovery. and...here it comes...sometimes i look at DD and think "you put me in this pain". and then i feel like the worst mom ever for even thinking it. i love her more than anything. i cant believe i would ever be in this place in my life.
Natural M/C : Arabella's Twin Guardian Angel, 7.29.2009.**Natural M/C : 2.20.2010.
18 weeks. Always Loved. 4 weeks.