So I've just admited to myself and FI that I have PPD.
I feel soooo helpless and I just want to live in a dark hole. Ive been telling myself that its just the baby blues , but its more than that. I just spent the last 2 days solid crying....for so many different reasons.
I feel so overwhelmed with DS, hes such a fussy baby and Im literally afraid to leave the house with him bc he screams so terrible for no reason. Its so embarassing the way people look at us when hes loosing his mind like that. So day after day I sit in the house and try to wish the hours go by faster.
FI works ALOT and long shifts so im home alone most days and nights. I have great friends and family but you can only have them help so much and then they have to live their own lives too. Im already back on my anxiety meds but I just made an apt for Mon with my Dr. to see what his opinion is on this.
Thanks for listening to me vent.