was anyone else terrified?

nmcrmc

DH and I have finally decided to start TTC again. I have two wonderful kids but over the past year and a half have gone through two heart-wrenching (for me) losses. I think part of the problem is that I felt so invincible after having my first two, even though I did have complications in those pregnancies.

 Did you feel scared when starting to TTC again? All I can think about is how I don't think I could handle another m/c... the thought terrifies me. Do I just follow my heart and go for it? I just need to know if what I am feeling is normal.

Mrs.EmmaLouise

Definatly normal.  After my 1st loss we had to wait to TTC for 6 months due to complications.  I thought by the end of that I would be so ready to try!  But when it was time, I was a wreck.  But after the first month, for me it got much easier.  Best of luck trying again!

TravelinMama

The gear doesn't go away no matter how long you wait or how long you're trying.  I wish I could go back to the blissful ignorant days where I was pregnant and nothing went wrong.  In the end though, all the worry and fear we face, will bring us something good. Hang in there.

grr_aargh

Absofrickenlutely.

It's terrifying territory, TTCAL.  Fortunately, good people make the scary trip easier, kwim?  And this board?  THis board is good people.

 

sweetbossom83

absolutly! it is scary.

Swede25

Completely normal.  After my first loss, I was scared out of my mind.  After my second loss, I'm not AS scared, but still pretty nervous. 

schen0510

I feel the same way.  We are TTC now on our own and are putting off going back to the RE until March/April.  If I do get pg now without the help it will be a wonderful surprise as I am pretty sure it won't happen.  So we are giving ourselves a little more time to heal.  I am so afraid to be pg again because I don't know what I would do if this happened to me again.  I would consider myself a strong person and I believe this has made me stronger but I am not sure how much more I can take.  Your feelings are completely normal and I am pretty sure many of the women on here feel the same way!

nmcrmc

Thanks ladies. I feel reassured knowing I am "normal" for feeling this way. I am the only one in my circle of friends/family who has had a miscarriage/s so it has been rough for me not having anyone who understands what I'm feeling- most people have avoided me like the plaque especially after the second m/c. Glad to know I have support here!

lisamarie_04

I am extremely terrified.  I had no issues during my pregnancy and by nature I'm not a worrier, but after going through a loss you're bound to be fearful the next time around.  My desire to bring a baby home with me outweighs my fear of another loss.  You just have to be willing to take the risk.