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skroops

I was finally able to talk to my doctor yesterday afternoon, and he told me that with this 3rd m/c I am now considered to have "recurrent pregnancy loss" and he also mentioned something about me being "high risk".  It was hard to for me to understand and process everything that he was telling me because my phone rang right in the middle of my sixth period class, and I stepped out in the hall to answer it because I knew if I waited until the end of the school day to return a call I wouldn't be able to talk to anyone. 

Anyways, I guess now I have to go in for some bloodwork and testing to see if all of my hormone levels are where they should be and to test me for a blood clotting disorder, and try to see if there is some underlying reason for these losses.  So I made an appt for Jan 14th, and he said no TTC until after the testing.  So now I'm feeling really scared and conflicted.  Part of me wants them to find something, so at least there is some reason that I have gone through this, and part of me is terrified that they actually will find something wrong. 

Blah, this sucks.  (Have I said that word enough these past few days?!  I am such a downer, but I just can't shake this funk I'm in)

wendyj

You have every right to use the word 'sucks' as much as you'd like, because frankly, your situation does suck. I know you're scared to find out what's going on, but if it's something that can be treated and you could end up with another healthy baby, wouldn't it be worth it? Good luck!

MsZoeB

I understand the frustration and the Blah feeling you have. I hope that they come to a simple conclusion for you and I think that it is good that he wants to run some tests. This way you will know what it going on when you start to TTC again.

Your body knows how to have a successful pregnancy and you will have one again. You might just need some simple help. 

orangeluck

I'm sorry and I hate that you are going through this.  I can totally understand wanting to find an answer to why this has been happening but being scared- I'm hoping that if they do find an variance that it is an "easy fix".  I'll keep thinking positive thoughts for you. 

NikCole

I know what you mean, when I had 2 back to back losses my doc sent me for bloodwork, and I almost wished they would find something so we could treat it. They didn't, and I ended up having a healthy pregnancy w/ Evan, but I was scared sh!tless the whole time.

I hope the holiday will bring you some joy and peace. Watching Zoey open presents should cheer you up, right!?

MrsWhiteonWhiteSt

You're not being a downer! You're going through SUCH a tough time, I wouldn't expect you to be all "puppies and rainbows" (like my nestie term? lol). I understand what you mean about feeling conflicted. At least if they find something "wrong" they can fix it. I am so sorry that this happened to such a good mommy

Like pp said, in the meantime- enjoy your Xmas with cute little Zoey. That face on xmas morning could cheer anyone up!

JenJar

A friend of mine went through 4 m/c in 6 months.  Once they went in for testing, they found out it was an easy fix.  She had a pill she had to take for several days during her cycle and she was pregnant the next cycle.  Hopefully it's an easy fix for you, too.  You have every right to be in a funk.  Try to enjoy the magic of Christmas with your sweet little girl.  I'll be thinking about you!

Two*True

It's scary, but finding an answer could put your worries at ease.  Enjoy your holidays with your little girl and try not to worry! (I know that's easier said than done).

day194

I've must catching up on posts, and wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss.  As everyone else said it is 100% understandable that you be in a funk right now.  It's a very tough thing that you are going through and you should take the time you need to grieve.  Best of luck with the testing.  I hope that the results bring you some reassurance.

MelissaSue81

Blah.. I know all these mixed feelings ALL too well.. Its a scary scary thing.. I think the one book I sent you will be really helpful in trying to understand a lot of the testing they'll be doing.. and if you have any questions.. feel free to ask. The good news is, if they do find something, the prognosis with treatment is really good.

And while this is NOT what you want to hear.. but I'm glad you're waiting a little bit to TTC, even if its just one cycle.. back to back losses are insanely hard on a person emotionally... It will probably be good to take a step back (yeah, right.. I know..) and try to heal a bit before you try again. Its so hard though. 

Are you off work next week? Do you have any free days/nights? Let me know.. We can get together for drinks or something.. 

mrobin73

I too am catching up over here, and sorry to read of your loss. Considering all you've been through - it's perfectly understandable that you'd be saying "it sucks." I hope the testing goes well and it's something easy to "fix." I too agree that giving your body a rest and time to "re-set" may be a good thing.

fenwaygirl5

I am just catching up and I am very sorry about your loss.  Hopefully, the doctor will figure out something with the testing. 

MarcyIam

Completely understandable - and I completely understand the wanting them to find something wrong so it can be fixed.  I felt the same way with our situation.  I really hope they do find something and, if it is a clot, they may put you on Lovenox - and I can tell you from experience - it's not so bad!  ;-)

skroops

Thanks girls.   Thanks for listening and letting me vent.  I am so grateful to have this board and all of you ladies.  And most of all, I am thankful for my beautiful little Zoey.  She really is the only thing that is getting me through right now and so for now I will just try to focus on enjoying Christmas with her take comfort in her smiles and snuggles.