I really just need a break. Tyler isn't napping, I think he is giving up his naps. He is in his room destroying it instead of napping, I put him in there almost 2 hours ago and don't want to go get him. Bri is just miserable lately. It is like nothing I do or no where I put her makes her happy. DH's company xmas party is Friday night, but we aren't going because of the kids. The party is 45 min away and starts at bed time. No one else can/will handle my kids, even my DH. I don't ever get time away from them, I can't even take a shower without at least one kid in the bathroom with me!! I want to go back to work just to get away but it wouldn't be worth it with the cost of two kids n daycare and the stress from my MIL by refusing to let them stay with her (she is crazy!). I feel so guilty. And the stress of the holidays doesn't help, Christmas is going to suck so bad when Ty opens his presents, then an hour later we have to rip him away from them to go visit family. And to top it off, I am getting a head cold!