still confused and feeling disoriented with so many things. I did however get a full night sleep (1st time in 3 weeks) last night since my mom came to stay. It has made a difference tremendously. I started taking my Klonopin today and will dump an ounce (6 hours after I take it) from my breastmilk to play it safe (even though it's been known to be safe while BF)....I err on caution these days with everything.
I feel like everythign has changed and I'm trying so hard to get a sense of "normal" back.
Cant' believe how big he is getting and filing out so nicely. I'm still concerned about how he wants to feed so sporadically but my doctor is going against popular opinion and is insisting to feed him every 3 hours on a schedule (the horror of it all). I will try it out since the ON DEMAND feeding really hasn't worked very well - it just stressed me and my baby seemed so much more fussy with it. He'd eat every hour or so and just a little bit and it just exasperated me.
I am starting to just pump and feed from bottle since I got too worked up wondering if he was latching on correctly and why he was so fidgety on the breast. This way, I'm not prisoner to his feedings and I can spend some time gaining control of my new role while someone else can feed him.
I'm praying this will all help in the long run.
I pray you are all doing well.